Save Me From Myself

Chapter 14

Andy POV- 3 days pass and it's time for me and Elena to go home. Thank goodness. Elena has been eerily quiet, and it scares me. She's almost never quiet. Although I guess considering the circumstances I can't blame her.

We get in the car with Jinxx driving, I would but I'm afraid to even let go of Elena in fear she'll crack like an egg. Elena just lies on my lap not saying a word. Just looking out the window with a blank stare on her face. Emotionless. Is this really what she's become? An empty shell of who she once was? I hope not. The doctor says she has a bad case of depression, which in itself is pretty depressing. I thought the world would never break her like that.

Broken. She is broken. And I have no idea if I can even pick up the pieces without hurting myself in turn. What can I even do for her? She's held on for too long in a world she clearly believes doesn't want her. She's told me before how she's constantly treated like shit, how others have bullied her in the past, for a short time it was. She's afraid to be around anyone, even me at times. She gets so hostile but she only acts like that because she thinks it's the only way others can leave her be.

She knows for a fact she doesn't belong here. That's probably why she did it in the first place. I guess I can't blame her exactly. But blaming everyone else won't help either. It just makes me so angry! She's like a puppy, cute and adorable and fun, but the minute you see those ASPCA commercials all of a sudden you realize how cruel people are and how others treat that cute puppy like garbage. She's like a dog in a corner, with a bunch of wolves trying to snap at her. And the only way she can fight back is bite harder, but she ends up hurting herself by the backlash. Either that or let her die. And I can't let that happen.

It just pisses me off. She doesn't deserve to be treated like that. Hell she can hardly survive on her own, what the fuck's gonna happen when there's no one left to take care of her? And Elena hates thinking she's annoying or a burden or anything like that. Sigh...suddenly I'm taken out of my thoughts by Jinxx saying "We're here."

We all get in the house, and I take Elena upstairs so we can have a private moment.

"Elena." "Mm." That's the only thing she's said the whole time. "Elena. Talk to me." She still doesn't say anything. It stays quiet until she says "Ugh...I am a terrible person." "What? Elena you are not-" "Oh yes I am. Don't lie to me. Here I was beating the shit outta people, getting fucking expelled, threatening people and shit. What kind of person does that?" "You're more than your mistakes Elena." "Oh really?" "Yes. You do sometimes act aggressive and rude, and yeah you can at times be kinda bratty, but hey, all teens act like that."

"Sigh...whatever." She takes out her phone and completely ignores me. I shouldn't be surprised. I head downstairs and just relax. As best as I can anyways. I see Elena's meds on the counter and that just reminds me how much things are gonna start changing around here. Who knows how the guys'll start treating her? If Jake'll ever come around here again? If Elena will ever be the same? It's a depressing thought. Which is why I try my best not to think about it.

Eventually I go upstairs and go to the bathroom to find Elena's blades. I'm no idiot, clearly she's hiding a few of them somewhere. I'll have to check her room later. If I come in now she'll just get annoyed. I find about 3 or so in the bathroom and that seems to be it. I'll have to ask her about the others at some point. If there is any. Soon enough it gets late, and so I go upstairs to tell Elena it's time for bed.

"Elena?" "Hmm?" "Time for bed." "Ok." She climbs into bed rather quickly. "Night sweetie." "Night." "Night." I kiss her on the forehead and get myself to bed, although it'll probably take me a while to even try to sleep. I can only hope everything turns out ok, because if not...who knows?