Drunk on love / Calum Hood

19. The water tower

-Grace-

A few moments later Calum was located in my room. I sat on my chair as I watch him enter my room.

”Don’t I get a hug?” He said and pouted. I stood up and gave him a quick hug, I could feel his big hands on my back, almost enveloping my entire body. When I let go I practically had to force Calum to let go of me. ”You have no idea how much I’ve longed after that.”

He placed his hands on my shoulder and looked right into my eyes. His brown eyes shimmered from the light on my ceiling and it made a beautiful shadow over his face. His hands slowly moved from my shoulder up to my cheeks. His thumb was brushing right under my left eye. We didn’t say anything, Calum opened his mouth to speak but closed it again. 

”I want to kiss you so bad right now” He finally said, it came out more like a whisper but since we where standing so close, I could hear him perfectly fine. 

”Don’t” I said and moved away from him, turning around so I didn’t have to see his sad face. I could hear his sigh.

”Why do you always do that, Grace?” He muttered, I turned around and looked at him with a confused look. ”Do what?”

”You always lead people on, do you like seeing people get hurt or what?” He didn’t sound angry, just sad. But his question made me angry.

”Do you really think that? I try my best not to let this get out on someone. It’s just too fucking hard. Why can’t you see that I’m not good for you? I’m not good for anyone!” I almost yelled. I waved my hands in front of me as I spoke.

”Grace, I’m so sorry. Let me help you. I would never hurt you.” He said, he looked sympathetically on me, a look I’ve gotten too many times these past year.

”You can’t fix me, Calum! You have to understand that. I’m a hopeless case. I’ve been diagnosed with depression, don’t come here playing doctor on me and think you can help me!” I took a deep breath, tears was about to spill over my eyes. ”Ashton doesn’t allow this, anyways. What ever this is.” I said with a lower pitch. 

”Screw Ashton, I don’t care what he thinks” He spat. 

”Calum, you have to understand that this isn’t going to work. And please don’t fall in love with me, I beg you. I’m not going to be able to handle that.”

”I can’t fucking control my feelings, Grace”

Calum looked down at his feet, his hands rubbed against the skin on his face. He looked up at me and took a few steps forward and his chest was now leaning against mine. Before I could do anything his lips was pressing to mine and we moved them in sync with each other. The kiss made my stomach flip and I could feel how soft his lips were. My hand moved to his hair and I tugged on the roots on his neck. One of his hands was resting on my cheek while the other moved over to my back and pulled me even closer to him, closing every small gap in between our body. 

As soon as we broke the kiss, my lips was craving his soft ones. Our foreheads was pressed together and we was catching out breaths.