you just can't be replaced | unfinished + unedited

he's not acting strange

*jake's pov*

we head out of holt's office about an hour later and sit back down at our desks, amy seems exhausted and drained. i look over at her and smile lightly "im proud of you santiago, you did the right thing' i say still looking at her softly, she smiles and thanks me while still looking tense.
"hey" i look over at her "what do you say if i come over tonight and we order some chinese and watch some movies, make you feel safe, and secure "i suggest looking up and her softly trying not to seem pushy or nervous even though ive never been more nervous, just a week ago i could barely look at her without dying, now im asking to hang out, and im standing by her side no matter, im in love with her, and im freaking out about it, but she needs me, i dont have time to freak out about it, she matters more then my feelings for her. helping her is all that matters, and ill do everything i can to help her.
she gives me a little smile "that sounds great peralta, come home with me straight after work?" i nod and look back at my computer
holy
shit
i'm actually hanging out with her, i'm gonna take care of her, i'm gonna be loving and supporting towards her, i'm gonna make sure she's safe and okay, but man am i nervous, ill need to keep my feelings on the down low, i need to make sure i'm not too much, i need to make sure i keep her safe, but also stay friendly.
i wonder if she knows, i wonder if she feels the same, i wonder if my feelings are obvious, if anyone else can notice. but that's not the point right now, she's what matters, she's going through something horrible right now, she doesn't need me to ruin it with my feelings, she doesn't need me to scare her off or make her feel less secure.

*amy's pov*

jake is coming over tonight, which is really sweet and really needed, as scary as it is to tell people, i'm glad he knows, i'm glad he's here, i'll admit i'm a little confused on how he's been acting towards me, ever since the expo, it's like he's not acting strange anymore, he's himself, he's so caring, he's everything. he has no idea how much i need him, he has no idea how much i appreciate him.
tonight will definitely be good for me, and i'll be able to relax, maybe even eat without feeling sick.
it's gonna be so good for me. i'm a little nervous though i will admit, i'm not sure why, it's just jake, we've been colleges, friends, and close forever, but something about it now, i'm just nervous about it, i want this to go well.

-jj