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song: dead to me - kali uchis
"i told you finn, as long as you're with her, you're dead to me."
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"fuck" i frowned when i realized that i drank the last of my drink. i looked around trying to find my way out of the dancing intoxicated teenagers. i slipped between a few of them, trying to find the kitchen. where am i? i get out of the crowd and finally make my way to the alcohol again. as i go to pour more in my cup, a slim, cold, hand stops me.
"i think you've had enough." a tired voice says from behind me. i turn around to see finn. he looked upset. hm.
"i told you i don't need you to babysit me anymore. fuck off." i say, slurring my words. "you know what fuck the cup" i mumble as i drink the alcohol straight out of the bottle.
"y/n please," he says softly, attempting to take the bottle out of my hand. i quickly snatch it back and sit it on the table.
"i told you to fuck off. i don't wanna talk to you." i lightly push his shoulders. "don't you have some bitch to be with anyway?" he rolls his eyes with a smug grin.
"aleya isn't a bitch. you're the one being a bitch right now." i go to walk away but he grabs me and sighs. "look, i'm sorry."
"mhm. so she isn't a bitch but she cheats and lies to you all the fucking time? makes since." i say rolling my eyes. "just leave me alone finn, i don't have time for you." i walk away with tears in my eyes. why is he like this? why is he such a dick sometimes? i scramble through the tens of people trying to find my way out. when that failed i just made my way upstairs.
i made my way down the hall and opened a door to what i thought was an empty bedroom just to see finn's friend jack on top of some girl. i rolled my eyes and closed the door, then made my way to another door down the hall. thank god, it's empty. i walk in and shut the door before laying face down on the bed. why did i even come to this stupid party? i knew finn and aleya would be here and it would upset me, god i'm so stupid. i have to admit... i miss him. i miss him so much. he was my everything at one point, my best friend. i loved him. i- my thoughts get interrupted by someone knocking on the door. "come in i guess" i mumble, wondering if they even heard me. the door creaks open and i look up to see...jack? "what do you want?" i groan.
"finn wanted me to check on you." he said, looking around the room anxiously. "he didn't wanna do it himself." of course he doesn't, pussy.
"weren't you just in the other room- you know what nevermind." i stop myself. "tell finn i'm fine and that i don't want him worrying about me 24/7." jack moves out of the doorway to reveal finn standing there. jesus christ does he ever give up.? "i told you to go away." jack leaves and finn shuts the door behind him.
"i can't just go away." he says sitting down beside me. "i-"
"finn don't start. you have a girlfriend, you have someone you love." i sigh as i stand up. "don't fuck it up with her." he looks up at me. i can see right through him. "even though i still think she's a bitch, go find her."
"no...i already found her, with another guy," he says sadly.
"surprising." i say as i roll my eyes. "are you gonna break up with her?" that was a stupid question, he never will. no many how many times she lies, cheats, or anything he goes back to her, always. i don't even know what he see's in her, must have some real good pussy or some shit.
"uh-"
"sorry for asking." i look away.
"look y/n" he stands up and puts his hands on my hips. "i-"
"finn we're not doing this. i know the second you leave here you'll go running back to her. i know." i take his hands off of me. "as much as i want it too, no." he gets up to leave and i stop him. "i told you finn, as long as you're with her, you're dead to me." he walks away without saying a word. i hurt him. i fucking hurt him again. i walk downstairs with tears rolling down my face, shuffling through all the people and finally finding my way out. i make my way to my car and when i open my door there's someone in the driver's seat. "goddammit finn" i yell, frustrated.
"i lost my car keys, plus you're drunk and you don't need to drive." he says with a fake grin.
"you know what fine." he smiles and starts the car.
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"here's your stop ma'am," he says in a country accent. "i'll bring you're car back tomorrow? or do you want me to walk home?" i sigh and look up at him.
"take the car, be careful, and...thank you." i kiss him on the cheek. "good night."
"night y/n" he smiles as i get out and walk into the house. i close the door and sigh, god it has been a long night.
"y/n!" my older sister whisper yells. "i told you to be home by three am dude."
"it's only three fifteen! i had to have finn drive me home." i explain apologetically.
"oh? you're seeing him again??" she smirks and teases me.
"no. no no no no no." i say as i take my jacket off. "no."
"well it seems like you are." she teases even more.
"he hurt me. he's dead to me. i'm not seeing him again. good night." i walk up the stairs and into my room, falling asleep almost as soon as i laid down on my bed.
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*text messages*
finn: hey i'm bringing your car back rn
y/n: k
finn: are you still mad at me
y/n: ...
finn: okay
y/n: finn you heard what i said last night.
finn: before or after you kissed me
y/n: that didn't even count as a kiss but whatever, you know what i said and i mean it. finn you are worth so much more than you think, she doesn't deserve you. but ik you love her and- i understand. but like i said, as long as you're with her, you're dead to me.
