Confused but in love

A song, A moment frozen in time, A night to remember

The song for this part: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJc2-tNGbHc

the soft piano began the song and i looked first at morgan who was looking at spencer not me, then at spencer himself who seemed to be just as nervous as i felt " hey you dont have to do this" i whispered while the intro played knowing this was his only chance to back out "yes i do y/n" he said looking at me with more determination in his eyes then i had ever seen i smiled at this before facing the front, at the team who seemed to be sharing some collective thought that i couldnt read the song began and reid started to sing " i can show you the world the world shining, shimmering splendid tell me princess now when did you last let your heart decide" the way he sang the words with such passion and nerves made a blush rise in my cheeks which i knew everyone could see but for once i didnt care, for once i didnt fell nervous or insecure about standing on a stage, for once i felt confident in my abilities and i knew that this was my moment to let my voice shine so when it came to my part i just let it out " a whole new world, a dazzling place i never knew but when im way up here its crystal clear that now im in a whole new world with you" i looked over to spencer to see him staring at me and i quickly looked away and focus on my part for the rest of the song but i couldnt help at certain lines or words look over at him and it seemed he was doing the same but i couldnt make sense of either of our motivations for this. as the song drew to a close i knew the final harmonising line was coming but i didnt want to sing it i didnt want this moment in time where i felt so confident and sure of myself and my feelings to disappear which i was sure it would as soon as the song ended but i couldnt place why i looked over at spencer who was just looking at morgan seemingly having a conversation to themselves but i didnt have time to stop and think "a whole new world" the words coming out as more of a whisper "thats where we'll be" spencer voice seemed to ground me "a thrilling chase" i decided there and then i would do something to give me a second away from the light to think i spun as i sang " a wonders place" i close my eyes and span and it worked my head felt clearer than it had since spencer ran off earlier in the night and as i finished the spin i was smiling again and when i returned to my spot i lost my balance and fell to the side when i braced my body for impact and it didnt come i opened my eyes to find that spencer had caught me, both of us just looked at each other with shock in our eyes but then as if we were thinking the same thing we both had our mics in our hands and were finishing the song me still in his arms " for you and me" we both let the last note drag out, something inside me wanted this moment to last forever and it felt like it did a moment frozen in time which neither of us wanted to escape from. After a moment longer of looking at each other he helps me to my feet "you sounded great ill add that to the list of the things i didnt know about you" i said as i jumped off the stage garcia just staring at me as i helped reid down "well you carried the song on your own i was just there" he mumbled which confused me, before we sang he seemed to confident but now he was a bundle of nerves so i decided to take action we both needed a minuet and i needed an exuse to ge out of here soon " hey cous im going to go and sort myself out then are we ok to make a move, if im expected to make it into work tomorrow i cant drink anymore unless anyone wants me to challenge them to a drinking game" the whole grup chuckled "sure cous take your time ill wait by the bar" he said and i walked towards the ladies room glad to me away from the confusion i was feeling and towards somewhere i could be alone.

i walked out of the small tolet cubical to find thankfully the bathroom was completley empty i sighed looking at myself in the mirror what was wrong with me my head stll felt foogy and my mind kept replaying that moment with spencer in my head and every time i couldnt help but smile but i didnt know why well i had one idea but it couldnt been right i couldnt possibly of fallen in love with him right?. "hey are you ok?" i heard a voice ask snapping me out of my thoughts i look to see garcia standing in the doorway smiling at me "hey garcia yeah im fine" i lied as much as i trusted her i didnt want to tell her what i was feeling or admit to myself what i knew was true "well i can tell thats not true so" she sighed coming to stand next to me shortly followed by JJ and emily "you know you all didnt need to come and check on me really im fine" i protested by emily cut me off "Izy you should know that you cant get away with lying with profiler in the room and you dont even need to be a profiler to see whats going on here" "she's right you know everything that has happened tonight has been giving the peices to put the puzzel together" the smile that i had beeen trying to supress broke through and look at them "i think ive fallen for him you know and i dont know how or what im going to do" i finally admited and i was engulfed in a massive hug from all three women " Izzy im so happy for you" garcia screamed and i laughed "garcia shhh i dont want the guys to run in here because morgan thinks your in danger" "so when are you going to tell him" JJ asked and i froze i hadnt even thought about that, the though of telling him how i felt made my head spin " i have no idea but i know its not going to be tonight im exausted and if we have any chance of seeing me in work tomorrow morning i need to go home and sleep before i start really drinking" i decided but i could tell none of them agreed " what?" i asked them, i could tell they wanted to say something "you should tell him tonight" garcia finally blurted out and i actually laughed "seriorsly i only just worked out what im feeling and after the night ive had no way" they didnt seem to like my answer but accepted it none the less "ok should we get out of here before the guys wonder what were doing in here" emily laughed we all bursted into a fit of giggles as we made our way out of the bathroom and towards the bar where i saw rossi and derek waiting "hey girls whats so funny" rossi asked and i shook my head "just girl stuff rossi nothing for you to worry about" the others just bursted out laughing again and i looked at derek "you ready then" "sure whenever you are" i turned to the girls and pulled them all into a hug which seemed to last forever then i turned to rossi and did the same "hey where is hotch and spencer" i asked pulling away from rossi scanning the bar, i couldnt find them anywhere "reid called it a night and hotch had to run something about jack oh reid did leave this for you though" rossi handed me a note and i slipped it into my purse deciding i would read it in the car. we said our last goodbyes and walked to the car where i sighed in relief, i had loved tonight and i knew i certainly wouldnt forget it for a long time i was exausted and couldnt wait to just sleep "lets go home then you chrashing at mine" i asked derek and he just nodded clearly lost in thought as he drove us back to mine my mind went to the note in my purse, i opened it up and it read "sorry that i had to leave beofre saying goodbye something came up that i had to see to really enjoyed tonight see you tomorrow spencer" i smiled at this note putting it back in my purse, i didnt want to destroy it, it made me feel warm and safe.