Hidden Angel

My friend Adeline asked me, "Why do you think people do evil things instead of good?"

"Because they are lazy," I answered.

"Ahahah-" Her sudden laugh shows how she's perplexed by what I have just said.

"What?" , She queried.

"Wait Bly, you're saying that they are lazy, yet they aren't idle to do bad things?...I kind of don't get your point."

Arghh. Doesn't she see I'm doing something? 

I closed the book I was reading to face Adeline.

"What I mean is they're idle to wait. They're kind of impatient."

Well, what people want is happiness, and they get it by doing bad things.

But they do not know this happiness is only for the meantime.

 They are lazy to wait and fight for what true happiness can bring them by doing good things.

"Oh yeah, you got the point. Thank you!", She burst.  

"Why did she abruptly asked that?", I murmured as I opened the book again. The Journey of an Ascian. Finally, I'm on the last page. 

As the shadows  try to conquer  me towards the hole, no voice came out of me. I tried  to break out of this void. But still, I can't make any movements. This is not what Mary promised to me.

I cannot move! The oath of happiness- I sought from the very beginning not to let them try to equivocate me. But because of Mary, I can no longer focus. And I can't believe that my life will come to an end like this. 

'Luck? Luck, wake up!  You're having nightmares!'

Mary! I hear Mary's voice from no-- "Okay! I'm done answering this shit! Why do they have this kind of question in these questionnaires of  Debate club - it pisses me off! What is it they want? For us to get involved in every issue! We're just Highschool students. Can't it be about we want! About how we always wanted to get out of-"

"My goodness Adine! Keep your voice down!"

"Hey! Who's loud in there!", The teacher shouted to us angrily. We're in the hours of reading, and some of my classmates have no intention of doing so, but here I am, trying to finish this book of someone named Alaska Ruscitti, what a funny name.

"I do not tolerate students doing whatever they want. This is my class, my time, and I want you guys to listen to me. Isn't it hard to be...blah blah blah"

"I told you to put it down," I whispered at Adeline.

"When have I ever learned to whisper?", She jokingly whispered too.

We both chuckled and ignored what was being said by our teacher.

"So Bly, since when did you care about the others, huh? Shutting me up like a slave, trying to keep them out from my noise," 

"Huh? What are you talking about? I'm trying to focus here. I'm about to finish the book, and your noise disturbed me," I remarked at her.

"Oh is that it? I thought you were going to unfriend me because I thought you're going to be an angel now."

"As if." I said in annoying tone.

Me? An angel?  Hah-, I may be a high academic student. But I will not let anyone gets in my way. Pfft, and what do I care about the others? As if they're the one who feeds me, and makes me happy.

I was never the one they'd adore. Ever since I was a kid until now, all that I hear are insults.

'Hey, don't come near me,  I don't like messing with the likes of you.'