"Baby! You won't believe what happened." Lisa almost squealed, she just got into her apartment at this hour, it's now midnight in Seoul. And Jennie is dead tired from all the office works, and even in household chores. She's been doing this for almost one and a half year. Successfully distracting her from missing her other half.
And it's been a year and a half since she bursted and almost well mostly, fought with herself, rather than Lisa.
Her overthinking that day because of the girl who went to Lisa's room and called her snapped immediately when the younger facetimed her again that time. She recalled bursting to Lisa, but the younger only told her, "Jennie, please trust me. You're the only one. I didn't went here to find another girl. I went here for work...for us!" And those were the words of Lisa that secured her and made her soft.
Days, weeks, and months has passed. their set-up every day was, Lisa would always work at the time that she's awake and free, and comes home whenever Jennie was sleeping already.
But Jennie never complained, she always answer the call of her girlfriend even though she just badly wants to rest, and it was always because she loves hearing Lisa's story about her day. She loves Lisa more than to herself.
"What happened?" She fixed herself, leaning on the headboard of their bed. Magically, her tiredness flew away when she saw her lover's happy face beaming on the screen.
Makes her forget all the longing and sadness she was feeling for the Thai girl.
"You know Josephine? The Victoria's Secret model? I think I'll meet her one of these days. Baby, their company e-mailed me. They want me to be their official photographer for the upcoming event of VS! How cool was that?" Jennie smiled to Lisa. But her heart started to get wound. Remembering that Lisa once told her that Josephine was her dream girl.
"Did you accept it?" Please say no.
But gently shook the selfish thought off.
"Babe, what kind of question was that? Of course! I've been dreaming for this day to come." Lisa said, her eyes shining. Jennie nodded, faking her smile now. She started to feel her head cracking and bursting. Her overthinking suddenly showed again. And her heart breaking was no help.
"Oh good." Lisa scrunched her nose.
"Just good? Jen are you on your period? Wasn't it supposed to be at the end of the month?" Lisa asked. Wondering what was the reason why the Korean girl was so dry with her. She should be happy, right?
Jennie cleared her throat.
"No Lisa, I.. I just.. uh, nevermind. I need to go now. Good night."
For the first time in their FaceTime Jennie was the one who ended the call then cried in silence. Holding her head using her both hands and, screaming in pain. As lots of negative thoughts running through her mind.
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She woke-up with the light tap on her cheek. When she opened her eyes, a red-haired girl, greeted her. "Jen,"
"Rosé." Jennie greeted the intruder weakly. "Why are you here?" She reached for her phone and looked at the time that reads, nine in the morning. "I overslept."
Rosé sighed, seeing Jennie's eyes that were swollen from crying. She held Jennie's shoulder and smiled to her, "It's fine, it's Saturday though. We don't have to work... Uhm, Jen, are you alright? You can talk to me with anything. You know that right? I'm always here for you."
Jennie tried to smile, but a tear rolled down from her eyes. How vulnerable she was for Lisa?
"Okay, there's something we really need to talk about right now. Is it about Lisa? You'll not look like a mess if not because of that monkey." Rosé confirmed. She made Jennie use her lap as a pillow. The older buried her face on Rosé's stomach. While the latter's stroking her hair. Trying to calm her.
