Dear Diary

1/27/2021

Dear Sans,
This is my first entry in this journal.

I haven't kept a journal for a few years now.
But tonight was super exciting for me, and I need to record what happened.

Okay, so...let me put some backstory into this before I jot down what exactly happened.

I met my current best friend about 5 years ago. Since this is on Wattpad, I'm going to change her name to Skye for the sake of privacy.

So her name is Skye, as I've said. We've known each other for five years. We met for the first time at a McDonald's when our parents set up a meeting on Facebook. That first meeting was pretty awkward, even after I showed her my fanfiction notebook.

Throughout the last five years we have set up lots of other meetings and nights where we could spend the night at each other's houses. We call almost every day currently and it's usually the entire day unless we have something else going on.

We have become super close, and we now know basically everything about each other...the good, the bad, the ugly.

We have a lot in common.
This includes our love for writing, video games, and sci-fi movies and shows.

She knows I'm obsessed with Sans the skeleton from Undertale and I know she's obsessed with this one girl she works with at McDonald's.

Anyway, now on to the real meaty stuff.

So tonight we were having a casual chat on the phone about random things.

I forget exactly what we were talking about before this happened, but I eventually decided to say, "So even after all this time of being friends, you haven't thought of being with me romantically once?"

There was a pause, and she replied, "Actually...I have thought about it. Have you?"

I giggled and answered with, "Maybe."

Now, more backstory-

-We're both single.
-I've been wanting a significant other for awhile.
-She more recently has been wanting a significant other.
-Every so often we joke about us two being together and she immediately dismisses it with a, "I love you, man...but not like that."

Okay so back to the story-
After that little back and forth, we kinda awkwardly laughed and were about to seriously dismiss the idea until she said, "So why am I considering it now?"

I paused and asked, "You're considering it?"

Her- "Well yeah, I didn't know you've thought about it before."

Me- "Yeah, and?"

Her- "I've actually thought about this several months ago."

Me- "You have???" At this point my eyes were wide and I was blushing half to death.

Her- "Yeah, I wrote it in my journal. Let me read that part to you."

She then grabbed her journal and flipped to the required page before reading about when I had a girlfriend about a year ago. Her entry said that she felt a bit jealous that I had a girlfriend but she wasn't sure if it was because we were so close as friends or because she wanted to be with me. She was a bit confused, the entry basically said. After that entry that thought kind of died off.

She finished reading the entry and she said, "So yeah, I've thought about it before."

By now I had a wide smile. "So, uh..."

Her- "I thought I'd figured my feelings out, so why am I considering us being together now?"

Me- "I don't know??? So you're seriously considering it?"

After this the conversation basically repeated itself a few times. We got really giggly and awkward and kept asking each other what our thoughts were about the situation.

It got a bit more serious after a period of time, and we started repeating the fateful question, "So, what is your decision?" to each other.

We both kept saying we didn't know, until I finally implied I'd love to try it out.

She paused and grabbed a quarter, telling me the coin would decide.

I mumbled, "I have a feeling I'd be disappointed if the coin flip said no."

The coin flip's outcome isn't very important, but we finally came to an agreement.

This agreement was that it'd be no for now, but we would see in the future. That way it'd give us time to think since this whole 'being together' stuff was new to us.

In a short summary, my best friend and I thought about getting together romantically and there has been no final decision, yet. We have to think about it first.

So yeah, tonight was a very eventful night. I have a feeling I'm going to be very restless until we come to the final choice.

There's probably more to it, but that was the night's basics.

So...maybe tomorrow will be as eventful as today. Who knows?

Alright well I better get to bed. It's after midnight. Wish me luck trying to get sleep.

Goodnight and farewell for now, Sans ❤️