In love with the villain

I was walking in the cold hard rain, thinking of my entire life. im cutting, my mothers a drunk, and my boyfriend, eli, is an abuser.  i had gotten to my car, not caring that my hair was back to its naturally curly mess, and opened my phone reveling a text from jake.

"hey deena, can you stop by? your mom said you weren't home."

Jake has been my best friend since we were 7. he's like the older brother i never had.  When i pulled out of the parking lot from the park, i got a text from eli.  i ignored it because i was too scared he was going to threaten me or something.  Just the other day he punched me and i fell to the ground crying.  but later, he picked me up, kissed me, and said that he was sorry and he loved me.

But i love him to much to loose him.  he's the only thing i have right now.  I pull up to Jakes house and he comes out with this big beautiful smile revealing his straight white teeth. i get out of my car and he comes and gives me a hug.

"Deena, i know you're sad. come in and tell me whats wrong."

"Okay Jake. But i really don't think you should know." He then looks at me whis his big hazel eyes.

"you can tell me anything, Dee." i love him so much. but in a sisterly way. we finally got inside of his house and he just looks at you.

"Why are you all wet? here you can borrow some of my mom's clothes." im glad that he did because i was drenched in rain.  i put on the jeans and t-shirt he gave me and i put my curly-brown hair in a messy bun.

"Jake im just thinking.  my life is a living hell.  My mom's drinking is out of control, and last week, Eli ab-"  i had to stop. i could'nt tell him about how eli hits me.

"What did he do last week? Dee, tell me!" i felt a tear roll down my face. i'm too scared to tell him. "Dee please tell me.  you're really scaring me." he came over to where i was sitting and held me in his arms.

"H-he, punched me in my stomach last week and i fell to the ground crying." thats when i felt him let me go and stand up. he had a very angry look on his face.  i was just staring at him as he paced back and fourth. he finally stopped, looked at me and said,

"Why do you let him do this to you! He HITS you and you stay with him!" Jake is never this angry.  He knows that Eli hits me and is always there to comfort me when i need to get away from him.

"Because, i guess i live him too much.  he, he said he was s-sorry." thats when i knew he was pissed off.  "Deena, he treats you like SHIT, and you still want to stay with him?!" i felt my face turning red as tears were streaming down my face. "Jake! you just don't understand!" he sat down next to me rubbing his forehead.  he looked like he was trying to calm down.

"Did he leave a bruise?"

"Y-yes. But it'll heal." i tried holding back the rest of my tears, but i couldnt.

"Show me. i want to see it." then i lifted up my shirt a little bit good enough so jake could see my bruise.  it was large, black, and blue. i looked away from him, but then he tried touching it.  Of course i flinched because it was painful. "Oww!" i yell out.

"i cant believe he hurt you.  i'm gonna kill him." but i did'nt want him to let eli know i told him.  all Eli would do is hit me again, and get him and his friends to jump jake.

"jake, no! please dont do anything to him!" i begged.  "So let me get this straight, he hits you and you expect me not to do anything about it?! Why did he hit you anyway?!

"Well, it was after school on wednesday." i quickly went to that day when he hit me.

I was walking out of the school building when i felt a hand grab my wrist and pull me behind the school. "So why'd you ditch me last night?" Eli asked me.  but i wouldn't answer.  "i asked you a question. now answer me, you little bitch." 

"I, i was doing homework.  i didn't have time to come over."  Eli had then walked over to me and looked me in the face.

"i dont care what you're doing.  When i say to come over, you're gonna come over."  i was terrified at that moment.  I knew he was gonna hit me. My heart was racing and i tried to walk away but he stepped in front of me and shoved me against the brick wall.  so i pushed him away from me and then tried to run.  He grabbed me by my shoulder, turned me around, and that's when he puched me as hard as he could in my stomach.  i was screaming in pain as i fell to the ground.

"That'll teach you not to mess with me, Deena.  Don't do it again!"  i was curled up on the ground five minutes after he walked away.  i was crying and sobbing. that's when he came back, picked me up and said,

"I'm sorry. i'll never do it again. i promise." Bullshit i thought in my mind.  But i was way to scared to stick up for myself.  "Eli, i-i gotta go. ill see you tomorrow."

next thing you know, after i told Jake what happened, he was just so shocked.  "it's getting a little late.  Maybe you should get home."

"You're not mad are you, Jake?" "No. but text me in the morning so i can drive you to school with me." i felt so safe with him.  so i got up, grabbed my things and walked towards the door.

"Dee?" i turned around to see his beautiful eyes staring into mine. "yes?"

"i'll see you tomorrow. goodnight." he said to me.