Corpsekkuno Oneshots

Ignored pt.1

!!TW Suicidal thoughts/kind of attempt!!

The past month, Sykkuno has been distant. He isn't purposely doing that, he's just been hanging out with a bunch of people and seems to forget about me.

Every single day I try to make plans with him, only for him to be doing something else. If it's not streaming, it's playing games with other people, if not that he's out with friends. I would go with him but my anxiety doesn't do well whenever I leave the apartment.

Of course, I won't get mad at him for that. It's my fault that I can't leave the house, it's not his fault for having friends, and I don't want to be one of those toxic boyfriends who won't let their boyfriend hang out with other people.

Lately, I've just been lying in bed, I don't stream games unless it's with Sykkuno because it isn't as fun without him, but whenever he's playing he always seems to forget to tell me and I end up not playing.

Another thing that happened is that he was hosting an among us game last night, and he invited me to play, but he ended up having a full server by the time I joined the discord so I just left. All I could hear that night were sounds of happiness and laughter coming from his recording room, making me cry myself to sleep.

I woke up this morning, only to see his side of the bed empty. I get up, expecting to see him in the kitchen, but I enter only to not see anyone, I look over to the living room, not there, I look over to the dining table, not there.

I walk over to his recording studio to see he's not there either. He couldn't be anywhere else.

 The first thing I do once I realize that he left is cry. I run to the bathroom, turn on the shower and just cry in the hot shower, not caring that my clothes are getting wet.

A while passes when I finally stop crying. The water's cold now, my skin is pruney, and I've run out of tears.

I feel worthless.

I get out of the shower and open the cabinet under the sink. I look around until I find what I'm looking for.

It's a knife. The knife I use when I feel worthless, when I want to die, when nobody loves me.

I grab the knife and slice my wrist gently with it. I bet Sykkuno never loved me, he just felt pity towards me, thinking we'd be friends, but then I told him I liked him so obviously, he said yes, because who wouldn't say yes to someone they feel bad for because they have no friends.

He's probably leaving every day because he can't stand being with me, but he can't officially leave me because I'm too clingy.

After thinking those thoughts for a decent amount of time, I realize what's wrong with me.

I'm a waste of space.

If it weren't for me, Sykkuno wouldn't be in this situation, having to hang out with people all the time just to get away from me. 

He would be free to live his own life, not have to take care of me. Most importantly, he wouldn't be stuck with me. He'd be free to be in a relationship with someone he genuinely likes, not with someone he feels pity for.

I should just kill myself. 

I look down at my wrist, there are four cuts on each wrist. Although, there's one a bit deeper than the rest.

I grab some bandages and wrap them around my wrists. I leave the bathroom and get into my bed, thinking of ways to kill myself.

I must have fallen asleep while thinking because now it's early the next morning. I look over to see Sykkuno peacefully sleeping. A tear starts running down my cheek, why can't anyone genuinely love me?

I turn around in bed, my back facing him and think of everything that's happened the past month.

Should I really do this? I hesitate, but when I think about the pros and cons, the pros outweigh the cons.

I'm doing this, it'll all end tonight.

I feel something move around behind me and arms wrap around me. "Morning, corpsie."

"Morning," I mumble.

"I'm streaming among us tonight and we're missing a player, you wanna play?" I shake my head, no.

"What's wrong? Are you not feeling okay?" He sounds like he actually cares for once.

"Not really," I say, "I've been feeling like this for a while now."

He nods his head, understanding, "Well, I'm going to OTV's house in a bit would you like to come?"

I shake my head no. "Why not?" I turn around in his arms so that I'm facing him and look at him with a 'isn't it obvious?' expression on my face. He furrows his eyebrows and starts to think but doesn't seem to figure it out.

"They don't know what I look like and I have fucking anxiety so I don't want them to know what I look like, Sykkuno." Those words came out more furiously than I expected and he looked taken aback by my reaction.

"I-I'm sorry, Corpse, I di-didn't mean to make you mad." He seemed nervous.

"It's fine, I didn't mean for it to come out so harsh but it did..."

He gulps, then nods in an understanding way, "I have to get ready now, I'll be back in time for my stream," I look at him, and without realizing what I'm doing, wrap my arms around him so that he can't leave.

"I have to go, I'll see you later," He presses his lips against my cheek, giving me a quick kiss before getting ready.

"Stay, please?"

He sighs, "I have plans corpse, I can't cancel just because you want to spend time with me, we're always together, just give someone else a chance." With that, he walks out.

My breathing starts to get heavy. He's going to leave me. He doesn't love me.

I feel tears fall down my cheeks, I want to wipe them off but I can't. I can't process anything right now.

My hands are shaking a bit. My breathing becomes more panicked. I'm having an anxiety attack.

I'm all alone, Sykkuno isn't here to help and I'm having an anxiety attack. It gets worse and worse by the second, I try to catch my breath but I can't.

I reach over to the bedside table, feeling around until I get my phone. "H-hey Siri, ca-call Sy," the phone says something but I don't process it, I just keep trying to catch my breath.

After a minute or so, the phone goes to voicemail.

I get up from the bed, stumbling as I walk to the bathroom, fumbling around for my anxiety medicine. I grab a bottle I find and take some of the pills out and swallow them.

I press my back against the edge of the counter and slide my back down the cabinets. Some time passes by when I hear Sykkuno yell my name and fall into a deep sleep.

{Sykkuno's POV}

I walk into the apartment because I realized when I was almost at the OTV house that I forgot my wallet and need a driver's license to be able to drive, so I drove all the way back home.

I walk into Corpse and I's shared bedroom to grab my wallet, but see the door to the bathroom wide open.

Once I got my wallet, I checked to see why the light was on and the door was wide open, only to see a bottle of pills open, spilled all over the ground.

My first instinct is to pick up the pills, or it was until I saw corpse sitting with his back against the cabinet, slowly closing his eyes. "Corpse!" I yell.

He doesn't move. Tears form in my eyes, my first instinct is to check his pulse. It's getting weaker every second. My second instinct is to call an ambulance, so that's what I do.

This is my first one shot, I'm planning on making a part 2 soon if you'd like that. Please leave some requests for what you'd like to read!