Speak No Evil (on hold)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Jason POV

     Truth be told I was a little frustrated when I realized that she really wasn’t going to tell me her secret right then and there. I was sort of hoping on knowing what was going on. She seemed like she was in so much pain. I just wanted to make her feel safe. I hated that look in her eyes every time she spaced out... I was also nervous to hear her answer though. She still hadn’t told me yes or no yet...

     “Jason... I want to be your girlfriend... but please please be patient with me. If I’m not worth it you can just leave... Okay?” Skye asked in a quiet, vulnerable voice.

     “What? You will always be worth it!” I said to her with a big smile on my face, and I meant it.

     She gave me a weak smile. She seemed vaguely scared, but I wasn’t sure of what. I suddenly couldn’t hold back anymore. I reached over to her and wrapped my arms around her. She stiffened for a second then relaxed and hugged me back. I was so happy. She accepted me.

     “Jason... You need to go. Now... I’m sorry.”

     “It’s okay, I understand you need to rest anyway.” I replied, a stupid smile plastered onto my face.

     “Thanks” she said with a tired smile.

     “Bye...” I hugged her one last time and left the room, leaving her with her own thoughts.

 SKYE POV

     My heart was racing. He hugged me! Thoughts of joy ran through my mind...

     “You bitch!” A voice yelled as the hospital room squeaked open once again.

     My blood ran cold.

     “Dad...” I breathed.

     “Why are you here! You should be at home! WHEN I GOT HOME I WAS EXPECTING TO SEE YOU! THEN I GOT A FUCKING PHONE CALL FROM THE HOSPITAL TELLING ME YOU WERE HERE. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? CAN’T YOU BE GOOD FOR ONCE?! WHY ARE YOU SO WORTHLESS. YOU DESERVE TO BE DEAD. NOT YOUR MOTHER. YOU!!” He screamed. I was surprised that no one came running in due to my father’s yelling.

     He slowly moved forward and he reached towards me. As his hand made contact with my cheek I flinched. His face hardened, and he moved his hand downward. I didn't dare move away. He explored my body, and touched places a father should never touch. My mind went back to that night. He wouldn’t... Not in a hospital... Would he?

     “Fucking Bitch.” He hissed furiously, while slapping my face hard.

     Tears leaked out of my eyes. I wanted to scream in pain, but I bit my lip instead. I wanted this all to be over. What the hell have I done to deserve this?

     “Daddy, please please stop...” I cried desperately at him.

     His eyes didn’t even soften. He made no motion to stop. His arms snaked around my body. Then, he leaned down and whispered in my ear “Once you get out of the hospital you're mine.”

     His words sent shiver down my back. My blood ran cold. I had to escape. I can’t stay here. I need to go somewhere where he will never find me. He needs to stay away from me. I can’t do this anymore.

     “Oh, and Skye, baby? Remember that nobody loves you, you worthless, useless bitch.” he said with a sadistic smile running across his face.

    I whimpered, and realized what he said was true... Maybe Jason just pitied me? I was so useless, and I was worthless. No one would ever love me... Why would anyone want someone so broken, useless, and worthless? No one... No one would want a girl like me... Tears streamed down my face.

     “Skye, you know why you deserve this don’t you?” My father asked me softly, almost kindly.

     “Yes...” I replied quietly.

     “Why?” He asked with a fake smile plastered on his face

     “Because I’m useless and worthless...” I whispered.

     His face went into a full on frown. “I can’t hear you!” He hissed at me.

     “Because I’m useless and worthless!” I yelled.

     He slapped me. The sound echoing throughout the room.

     “You got that right, damn bitch.”

     Suddenly his phone rang.

     “Hello?” My father’s gruff voice softened.

     “I’ll be there, now? Okay.” He closed his phone and smirked at me. I’ll be back to get you baby. Bye bye.” He said.

     The room was dark after he left. His eyes still haunted me, and I felt as if I was being watched. But, no one else was in the room. Something must be wrong with me. Why can’t I just be worth it? Why can’t I be a little more useful? Why do I have to be so damn dumb? I don’t even deserve to be alive. My father is right in so many ways. Jason deserves to much more.

     A voice in my head stopped me though. Skye... If Jason can love you, then you must mean something... Take deep breathes. Everything is going to be alright. Just one more day. I can tell myself this everyday. Just one more day. Breathe so I know that I am alive. If I am alive I can find hope. I need... I just need hope I told myself right before I slipped into a deep slumber.

     In my dream I was drowning, and no one was there to save me. Jason watched from a dock. His face changed from a scared, worried face, morphing into my father’s sadistic one. I screamed, gasping for air. My lungs screamed, if that is even possible in a dream. It was so vivid. I kept fighting, not wanting to die just yet. The water swallowed me whole giving no mercy at all. I finally lost all strength and gave up. I sunk deeper and deeper. Even underwater my father’s face stayed forever etched into my mind.

    I suddenly woke up panting. Sweat was pouring down my forehead. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. How could I hold onto such a thin line of hope? I barely knew Jason... How can I just depend on him? I need to be strong. I know that I can’t live without my own will to live. I can’t just depend on him. He could be anyone. He can do anything he wants. I fear of what my father will do to him. I fear so many things. I feel like such a coward. I shy away or run away from everything that gets too hard for me. Sometimes it just gets so bad. I look out the window and want to jump. Sometimes when I go ride the train, I just want to jump onto the tracks and die.

     Hey sorry I haven't been updating. My life has been quite the hell lately. I had a fight with my best friend recently and it's really getting to me. The things she have said to me are reasonable but they hurt so much. To the point where I really want to die. I thought about jumping today, but I don't think I would have the courage to. I'm a real coward... I feel horrible because I know it is my fault the whole fight happened, but I can't seem to even talk to her. So yeah... The chapter is short cuz I havent rlly had time and everything in my life has been so complicated. Sorry for my short complaining. I can't help it. Maybe I'm being a horrible friend... I wonder if I'm rlly trying to play the victim... well, not on purpose but does it seem like it?