Crush / Taekook

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Jungkook P.O.V

I leaned my head on the plane window and silently sighed. A lot of thoughts filled my head and variety of questions to which I don't have an answer. How can I like my best friend, my brother with whom for almost a decade we are partners in crime. I tried to put my feelings away, but what can I do, when we spend almost everyday together and he thinks that I'm straight, so as almost everybody else thinks the same. We seven know about each of us everything, who likes who, we even know our 'members' size, so yeah, we don't keep a secret. Everyone knows that Taehyung is gay, that Jimin at one point was questioning his sexuality, but at the end realized that he is straight, that Namjoon almost did not became father, but expect Jin nobody knows, that I like boys, more precisely that I like Kim Taehyung. I feel ashamed of myself, but I just can't stop my feeling. In Bangtan we're like family and touching each other is normal thing, like putting hands on each other tights, putting arm around shoulder and so on. So I free lee do these things with other my hyungs, but when it comes to Taehyung I became nervous and a lot of times my hand goes in places where they shouldn't go, but Tae doesn't mind and likes to touch me and cuddle either. When he touches me, cuddle me for a moment I think that he feels the same way like me, but next minute I see him doing the same thing to other member.

This tour doesn't help me to put my feelings away. I miss my Korea, I miss my home, so a lot of time I feel tense and only way for me to feel a little bit relaxed is to snuggle with Tae and feel like I'm home. Again and again I find myself leaning on Tae shoulder, obviously when no one's watching us, because our company feel a little bit insecure about our classiness and a lot of time we have to separate and sit far across from each other, that annoys me, but at the same time for me it's better when I try to put my feelings away.

Almost everyone in the plane was sleeping and only mine lights were on. I was so into my thoughts that I didn't see someone in front of me, when I rise my glance I see black messy curls and those dark orbs looking at me worrying "Jungkookie why are you not sleeping".

Smile spread through my face: "Ou, just a lot of thing got on my mind" I answer."I saw you was asleep why wake up?"

"I was in the restroom and then saw the lights. Now move" he said and lie beside me, this plane seats are okay for one people, but when two grownups man try to fit is a little bit cramped, so Tae put his legs on mine and put his one arm around my shoulders. I leaned closer to him, while hugging each other I feel more relaxed and fell asleep.

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