Ymir x Historia

Love Letter

Ymir's POV:

Writing a letter to my loved one isnt as easy as it seems after the decision I have made. Reiner is looking at me while making weird facial expressions. No wonder he's single.
As the fine letters are being drawing on  paper by me Im struggling to keep calm. This is so overwhelming. Why couldn't our fate be different. I know ill be missing you every day and night form now on but I hope that when Im on my deathbed I can still see your blue eyes on that pale face with tears running down it. It was never easy. It will never be. I know you care but Im sure you cant forgive me after leaving your side. I cant protect you anymore.

Historia's POV:

"To my dear Historia... As I'm writing this, Reiner stands next to me. It's pretty obvious that he' sneaking peeks at this love letter... I never imagined I would end up choosing them over you. It won't be long till i die. But I have no regrets. That's what i'd like to say but there is one thing... It's that i wasnt able to marry you. Sincerely, Ymir"

These words were written on the letter i've received from Yimir. Hange gave me it. Shes worried... Even tho I dont know what to believe. I tried to get you off my mind but it didnt work. The fact that i didnt get to say goodbye on the battlefield. Flashback are violently hitting me while Im trying to not cry. I didnt get to confess to you... I love you more than anything, I love you more than the sun. I love you more than the sea. I love you more than the mayoru leaves, but you never got to hear it.
You never got to kiss me as you always wanted to. You never got to look into my eyes like you wanted to. You never knew I loved you they way you wanted. You reached for me, but I wasn't there. You felt so lonely but you didnt care. "It's fine i'll die anyway". Stop saying that. I miss your mature eyes. I miss your chocolate hair... But the battlefield took that from us. I sincerely apologize that I never got to touch you the way both of us wanted. Ill never forget you. Ill write you letters everyday even tho you won't get to read them. Ill think about you while Im saving my own life for your sake. You wanted me to live.

On the battlefield 1:

My heart crashed into your hands while you looked at me. You were a titan, but I was not afraid. I was never afraid of you because I had hope. Stupid hope i lost on that battlefield. Your finger stroked my blonde hair and then you disappeared. You chose them. My soul cant take it... You chose the people that tried to kills us. I saw you leaving with them while my friends were dying. Dying. Dying trying to save us.
I cant forgive you for being so harsh to yourself and others but I cant forget you. That empty look on that titan face. You had feelings. Why were you looking at me? What did you want? You never told me... Why were you looking at me with that frightened look on your face? Why were you scared? Were you afraid of dying? You were brave... Tears are not enough to forgive what you did, neither a love letter is.

Battle field 2:

Eren and Mikasa were out of our sight. Levi and Erwin were fighting for your sake yet you sacrificed my whole hope. Everything is gone forever. Even the infinite both of us experienced disappeared... You distroyed my heart.
Ill never forget that shaky voice you had while telling me to not be afraid. Everyone was dying. The life inside of both of us died when you left.
We were on the battlefield overwhelmed by those titans but... for me it was all in slowmotion. My heartbeat, my slow breath. I was afraid. Everything was moving slow. The blue flowers that were surrounding us were still standing. Your cape was being ripped of by the wind while I remembered... You gave me your old cape. Smelled like roses and wine. You told me to always keep it at home. "Everytime you are in danger... Hope that you'll get back home. Wish to touch that soft material again." This flashed my mind while almost getting killed by an abnormal titan.
I lost hope.
I'm not wishing to smell roses and wine again.

Even tho I loved you with my whole being. I cant forgive you for leaving the humanity down. Letting me down. You told me you loved me. I cant remember how it feels. You touch on my check wiping my tears off again. Ive spent so many years looking for you, even tho you were always by my side. I wanted to find you. I wanted to find the opportunity to confess. I guess i can say I'm going to live with this regret. I never told you the way I felt.