Second Chance

Sickness

Edward and I finally broke apart, “Thank you Edward. For everything,” I stared into his eyes and I was feeling so sad.
“I should be the one saying thank you,” Edward smiled small at me, “You’re one of the best things that’s ever come across my life.”
I seriously felt so bad right now. I thought of how I was given a second chance and this time I was making everything so awkward and messing everything up. I doubted if my choice of running into them at the park was right.
I simply returned a weak smile, and I headed downstairs, leaving Edward in his room to carry on with his work. I found John in the kitchen making breakfast.
John turned around at the sound of my approach, “Morning baby,” John flashed his teeth at me, “I’m making breakfast for you – I heard that you’re up already,”
“Thank you John,” I smiled and skipped towards him. I gave him a kiss on the cheek, but he turned his head around in time to make my lips land on his.
I giggled, and John wrapped an arm around me as he slid the food onto a plate.
We both sat down at the table with John across from me. He watched as I was eating as he had already had his portion.
“Hmm,” John suddenly zeroed his eyes on my wrist – to be exact, on the bracelet which Edward gave me, “When did you get that?”
I looked down at the bracelet, and the meaning behind it broke my heart again, “It’s a friendship bracelet – Edward gave it to me this morning,” I said.
“It matches the necklace I gave you nicely,” John smiled, “And that’s so cute of him to give you a friendship bracelet.” He chuckled.
“Yeah,” I forced a smile.
Just then Edward entered the kitchen with a stack of paper, “Hey John,” he darted a glance at me before pulling out a chair to sit next to John, “Those people want to see you again.” He handed John the papers.
John flipped through them and sighed, “Okay, I’ll arrange a meeting with them later,”
John put the pile of paper onto the table and the three of us continued talking about random stuff. Although there certainly was something between Edward and I, Edward was a very good actor and the normal atmosphere almost made me think that Edward and I were simply friends, and nothing more.

“I wish I could stay,” John stroked my cheek, standing by the bed as I was sitting against the head board with a pillow supporting my back, “Will you be okay?”
“Yes,” I nodded and gave him a weak smile, “It’s just a headache.” A massive one, but I did not say it out loud. I did not want to interrupt his work.
John had arranged a meeting with the people at work today and I woke up with a massive headache this morning. I thought I was having a migraine. And he wanted to stay at home to look after me, but it was not possible, because he was the one dealing with those people usually instead of Edward. He was more familiar with those people, so Edward could not possibly go instead.
“Don’t worry John,” Edward entered the room, “I’ll look after her.”
“Thanks Edward,” John smiled at Edward.
Then John turned back to me, “I have to go now; call me if you need me, okay?”
“Okay,” I nodded, “But I’ll be okay John. Don’t worry.”
“I love you,” he said before kissing my lips.
“I love you too,” I smiled at him and glanced at Edward briefly. He was expressionless and looking away from us.
John went out and there were only Edward and I in the house now, “I’ll get you something to eat,” Edward said quietly before walking downstairs.
I sighed, and slumped against the pillow. I touched the music note on my necklace and played with it. I was missing John already. I was sick and I wanted to be in his arms all day. But he needed to work.
I was fumbling with it mindlessly as I thought of Edward. I hoped everything would turn out okay for him. It was not like I did not love him anymore, but him and I were no longer possible. I raised my hand and stared at the bracelet which Edward gave me.
I remembered the day when he gave me this. The scenario reminded me of the day when we enjoyed each other’s company more than we should. I also knocked the paper out of his hands then. I sighed at the memories.
Moments later Edward returned with some toast and water for me, and he also brought up some pills.
“Thanks Edward,” I smiled at him and he sat down on the edge of the bed to watch me consume the stuff he had brought for me.
“Are you feeling better now?” Edward asked me when I had finished everything and taken the medicine.
“I guess so,” I said and put the glass of water on the bedside table.
Edward helped me with lying down and he tucked me in.
“Take a rest,” he told me gently, “If you need me, I’ll be in my room.”
“Okay,”

I woke up some time later and I felt my stomach flipping. I thought I needed to puke.
I got out of the bed quickly and ran towards the attached bathroom. I was being loud as I was banging on everything – almost falling out of the bed due to my dizziness, and I banged open the bathroom door.
I kneeled down in front of the toilet and threw up. Then I felt someone crouching down beside me and a hand rubbing my back gently.
“I – I’m okay,” I said breathlessly and wrinkled my nose against the smell, “You don’t need to see this.”
“Don’t be silly,” Edward said and kept trying to make me feel better.
At last I was done with throwing up. Edward helped me with brushing my teeth and put me to bed again. He was just so caring and sweet.
He was about to leave when I shot my arm out and grabbed his hand, “Don’t go,” I whispered. I was still feeling a bit sick and I needed him. I knew this was selfish of me but I was feeling so bad that I needed to be in someone’s arms.
Edward turned around and stared at me for a second, then sighed and got into bed next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and stroked my back.
“How are you feeling now?” he asked softly.
“A bit better,” I looked up at his face which was close to mine. His warm body against mine had made me feel lots better.
We stared at each other and slowly but surely, Edward leaned in closer and closer.
“I know I said that I’d not do this, but I can’t help it,” he whispered, “I’m sorry (Yn), but…”
He closed the distance between our lips and they molded together perfectly.
I pressed myself closer to Edward and his fingers tickled my back. I laid my hands against his chest to feel his heartbeat increasing.
We broke apart and I brushed his soft blond hair away from his eyes so I could stare into his beautiful green eyes and lose myself in them.
“I love you,” he breathed, “I don’t think I can ever stop that from happening.”
“Me neither,” I whispered.
“But we shouldn’t do this,”
“I know…”
“And I don’t want to hurt John,”
“I know and me too… I love him, but I happen to love you too; I can’t leave him but I need you as much as I need him,”
“You’re greedy,”
“I know,” I bit my lip as Edward lifted a corner of his lips.
“So what do we do now?”
“I don’t know…” Edward admit, “But I don’t think we can live without each other – as long as John doesn’t know, we can…” he trailed off.
I nodded in agreement and once again our lips touched.