Stars➳ Newt{2}

I hate you

I finally got some time alone. Just to sit and stare and think, and not constantly worrying, or moving. We were finally safe, away from everything.

I let my feet dangle of the edge of the rock as I played with the wooden sculpture that chuck gave me, and the two necklaces that were rested on my neck. The star, and the locket.

"You scarred me today." L

That's a voice I'm glad to hear. "And why did I scare you blondie?" I asked and he scoffed as I turned my head to see him towering over me and I stood on my feet trying to level my height with his.

"Let's see. You got bloody drugged up, you got shot, and you almost risked your life to save Brenda's." He listed and I just shrugged it of. So I put myself in not the best situations.

"It scares me that it's easy for you to hide physical pain, from everyone, it scares me how much pain your hiding from me." His voice broke a little and I pressed my lips together not knowing what to say.

"Seeing you trying to hide your pain, it bloody hurts."

"I do it, because pain shows that I'm weak, and I don't want to be weak. I want to be strong. Not for me, but for you, for Thomas, Minho, Frypan."

"We're all a little weak Alex."

He's not wrong. No matter how strong I try to be there's allways going to be some sort of weakness building inside of me. Until the weakness is being ignored so much that it grows to the point where your going to burst.

"I'm glad your here. God without you I'd be falling apart, I probably wouldn't even be me I wouldn't be-"

"Hey, I'm here. I will allways be here." He pulled me into a hug wrapping his arms around my back as I wrapped mine around his waist and he rested his chin on my head lightly rocking us.

"So, who was the certain someone you couldnt bare to see to suffer." I practically heard the grin through his stupid voice and I let out a small giggle.

"Probably some guy, he was blonde, brown eyes, pretty ugly if you ask me." I teased and he scoffed at my detailed description pulling away from the hug.

"Yeah, he kinda reminds me of you."

"Oh really?" He said and a smirk formed on his lip as her wrapped his arms around my waist holding me over the edge but I could feel his tight grip around me.

"Newt stop!" I screamed out laughing as I gripped onto him as hard as I could dangling over the edge. "You sure? I think your enjoying yourself."

"No seriously! If I die your dying with me! I'm dragging you down with me." I laughed squealing and he pulled me back over the edge laughing uncontrollably.

"I hate you." I tried keeping a straight face trying not to smile as I folded my arms over my chest.

"No you don't." He said as he tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear as he cupped my cheek rubbing my thumb against my cheek.

"You have no idea how insanely in love with you I am." He whispered starring deeply into my eyes. He used the word!

He used the freaking word. He used the l word. What the hell do I say! What do I do. I'm not good in theese situations. Oh fuck it.

I snaked my arms around his neck pulling him into a passionate kiss as I felt his tongue trace around my lips as it slipped into my mouth.

I quickly pulled away from the kiss biting my lip anxiously starring into his stupid brown eyes.

"I hate you. I hate you for making me love you. And I hate you for making me love those pretty brown eyes of yours, and your stupid smirk. And your stupid accent. And your stupid hair. I hate you."