Loseing You

Losing you

I'm sorry

I never thought I would actually lose you

and I didn't know it would be this hard

living without you

It's hurting me so much

Have you ever heard that quote

" your heart is the strongest muscle in your body"?

Well, if thats true

Why does your heart break so easily when you lose someone you love so much?

Here I am in tears again

and I'm not saying its your fault because its not

right now all i feel is pain

Remember when you said you needed me

Or after about a week and a half of texting you told me you wanted to tell me something

I was so nervous I thought you didnt want to talk to me anymore

Then you replied 10 minutes later, what felt like hours to me

The message was so long that you had to send it in three separate messages

It said that I meant alot to you and you considerd me one of your top three best friends

You seemed a bit nervous because you typed my full name

Then when i replied i felt the same way

You were so surprised

Or another time when you texted me that you needed me

And i texted you back I also needed you

After you said " Awww Yeah. We both need eachother"

That was when I knew i couldn't lose you.

Or the times we would text even though we had nothing to talk about.

I don't know about you but to me they were good times

All I have ever tried to do...

Was be there for you when you needed someone.

I trusted you with everything

Not once did you judge me.

I never said thank you for that.

Everything has changed so quickly l

and now I wonder if it will ever go back to how it used to be

You smile. I smile.

You feel down. I feel down.

It feels like I'm falling, falling down

When you lose your best friend...

Its like losing a vital organ

   It starts to kill you......