Punishable by death

Chapter one

New year, new me. New year, new me. That's all I'm seeing as I scroll down on tumblr. Yeah it's a new year but I don't think it'll be a new me. Because the new me would be outgoing, and not shy, and willing. All things that I am not, and will continue not to be. The new me would be prettier, more confident, and most of all, it would be everything I'm not right now. Which is a good thing.

My name is Maddie. I'm a junior with very little to no goals for my future. Everyone's always trying to push the idea of college into my face but I'm not feeling it. I'm never feeling it. There's only one time when I feel any type of emotion at all, and its when I see him. Him; brown eyes, brown hair, pale skin. His lips are thick, but not to thick, and his hair is curly. He's been my crush since freshman year, and although I had many chances to ask him out, my anxiety had gotten the better of me.

Tomorrow I go back to school after Christmas break, and let me tell you! I am NOT looking forward to it. The school I go to is white washed, priveledged white kids who don't care if they commit murder because their daddies can buy them out of it. That's all I'm ever surrounded by. But him, he's so different, he's the only one who understands me.