Female college student dictation: the bar indulges once and removes the virgin

This article comes from an emotional story narrated by a female college student. Because the girls in the entire dormitory are proud and not ashamed that they are no longer a virgin, in order to prevent students in the same dormitory from laughing at themselves as a virgin. So I went to the bar to indulge in a one-night stand. Afterwards, I regretted it, but it was too late. There was only one virgin. If I lost it, I couldn't find it again. The editor compiled her experience of indulgence this time. She tells her ambivalence.

I am only 21 years old this year and I am a junior in a famous university in Beijing, but after experiencing the overnight indulgence in the bar, I regret it, but it is too late. I lost myself and made myself degenerate... .

I think I belong to the avant-garde and conservative. I can understand many things, such as one-night stands, online dating, etc., but I will not do it. In fact, I am not reserved, but I have not met the man I love.

　　To be able to live freely, I rented a house outside the school. Of the three best friends who live with me, only I am a virgin. To be honest, I feel depressed among a group of non-virgins, an inexplicable depression. It is annoying to say that some of the behaviors of the three of them always affect my mood.

Wang Yi was in the same grade as me, and was in the same class as me in junior high school. At that time, Wang Yi and a boy in his class talked about friends, every day sweetly, he would receive a love letter almost every two days. Sometimes Wang Yi would take it out, read a few paragraphs to me, let me share her happiness, which makes me very jealous.

　　I still remember that Wang Yi had an awkward relationship with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend jumped off the third floor of the teaching building in anger and broke his foot. This incident was a sensation at school at the time. I accompanied the tearful Wang Yi to visit her boyfriend's house. I am very interesting. I took the time to leave very early and Wang Yi stayed there late at night. The next day, Wang Yi told me that he wanted to marry him and love him forever. I remember Wang Yi's expression at the time: staring into the distance, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised, happy and bold, as if he had experienced a lot of things. I think Wang Yi has not been a virgin since that night.

　　Three months after Wang Yi's loss, he broke up with her boyfriend. "I think we are not mature enough." Wang Yi's boyfriend threw down these words and dumped Wang Yi, which is easier than throwing clothes. Soon, Wang Yi's boyfriend found a more coquettish woman outside.

Then one day, Wang Yi shut himself in the room and struck three times at the pulse of his wrist with a blade. When he was discovered, the blood had already flowed out of the door. Later, she stayed in the hospital bed like a pupa for three months. Suddenly, a great realization came out. A pair of eyes became agitated, expressing affection, and overwhelming sentient beings. I don't know how many boyfriends Wang Yi has made. She seems to be very happy. It's just that every time I wash my hands, I accidentally show the scars on my wrist like a bamboo ladder.