Luck of the Draw

The Mess

Things are complicated when you love someone, but want someone else.

Let me take you back about 1 year ago in my life. Me and my co-worker, Chris, had a thing for each other, but we were both in healthy, stable relationships. However, this didn't exactly stop us. Let just say, a little wine and a phone call later, I had cheated on my boyfriend with my co-worker. This turned into a shit show for my heart and I thought I would lose the love of my life, David, forever. Well, David said he was hurt, but he said it was okay. "Shit happens" as he put it. About 6 months after this incident, I felt closer to David more than ever.

While I was at the prime of my relationship, Chris was at the lowest in his. He didn't love his girlfriend anymore, and he was so unhappy. He said he couldn't leave the relationship because he doesn't want her parents to think he is leaving her because of their kid together. Did I mention he has a kid? Whoops. Anyways. He has asked me for advise, but the only advise I can give him is to break up with her.

Push comes to shove, I am still working with Chris who is still in his toxic relationship, I am now 2 years into my relationship, and things could not be any better for me.

Every Saturday after work, David, Chris, another co-worker of mine, Zac, and I play poker together. David and Chris, though are not buddy buddy, understand that I cannot live without either of them. I am simply a selfish bitch, but I can live with that. David knows how I feel towards Chris, and he is willing to live with that as long as I always come home to him at night. Chris's girlfriends, Elsa, doesn't even know I exist. Chris is simply playing poker with the boys, and I am not in the picture.

Poker has always been a stress relief for me. I am not great at it, but having a natural poker face, a bit of luck on my side and having the iconic Alex Foxen as your uncle makes things a bit more interesting. It is hard to put it into words, but poker is a rush, no matter the game.

Playing poker with 3 boys is always fun for a flirty girl like me. We like to change things up and make it casual strip poker or truth or dare, but there is always someone going home empty handed. 

Luckily, we also have boundaries. I am with David, Chris has Elsa and Zac has his pride. We do not cross these boundaries, and if someone does, the game is done. However, tonight was a different night.

"I dare you to kiss her."