Always in my heart - Larry Stylinson FanFiction - AU

Chapter 1: turning point

Is really simple to think that the life being part of a really successful boy band worldwide known it's easy. Waking up in the morning, having breakfast with your best friends, meeting with the producers to discuss about the new single that is gonna be out for Christmas, "Follow Me In The darkness", (the producers proposed it and for me this is a huge no, definitely not something I want to do) and in the evening, like every famous boy band, concert. 

Today we'll sing in Australia, that for me and someone else of the band has a special meaning. I won't tell you what happened here a few years ago, or not yet... maybe later on I'll tell you.

It's 6pm, in around two hours we'll start the concert, and like every concert, we'll sing the songs of our album to a lot of people. I'm used to being a little anxious and emotional before a concert, but it's weird thinking that I'm not anymore a simple boy that studied and worked. I am now one of the most famous people in the world, and with my band mates we managed to create this. Together.

6.30pm: the band that opens our concert, the 5 Seconds Of Summer, gets ready to go on stage and do their own mess while doing their songs. They became like brothers to us, even if the truth is that I have a special connection with Micheal. He knows my secret, which isn't that secret anymore, and he knows how hard it is for me to hide it. He knows that I feel trapped. The Modest managed to ruin even such a beautiful emotion.

"Let's not think about it" I keep telling to myself "In a few moments I'll go on stage and all my thoughts will fade away... yeah, just like this"

I repeat these things to myself every evening, but the thoughts don't go away anymore. They stay right there, making me go crazy, becoming obsessions.

It's our turn, we go in our places and go in.

We look at each other, I know he's watching me. "He smiled at me" I think and automatically a big smile grow on my face.

The song that makes me feel sad is coming, it's that song's turn now.

I know what I want to do, I want to scream my secret loudest than ever, even if I think the world already knows that. I know this is gonna make the producers go crazy, they could even make us stop singing it in the concerts... or worse. But I don't care, I have to do it.

Little things's base is starting and Zayn walks around the stage singing the first parts. He is a few meters away from me, smiling at the crowd. God only knows how much I love him. 

Zayn and Liam are coming back to their places, now it's my turn. 

I have to stop staring at him.

I take a big breath, I think they've understood what I want to do. After all, I made them and Niall and Micheal become paranoid, but also dream with me to change these words.

They look at me, smile and nod giving me the courage necessary to do it. And so I do it.

"And I'm in love with Lou... and all his little things" 

I said it so clearly that everyone understood, and while the fans scream excited, I see Louis turning towards me and give me a huge smile while his eyes are watering. 

I did it! I am the happiest person in the universe! We've shown our love loudest than ever, but I know that in the exact moment that I'll enter in the backstage the management they'll start screaming at me. 

They don't want people to know. They say that telling it will ruin One Direction's fame. Bullshit.

But I am strong, especially after his glare full of love.

Oh, right. I am Harry Edward Styles, a boy completely in love with his best friend and boyfriend.

Our love is complicated, and so is our relationship, but this doesn't matter.

We will win.

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Author note: 

Hi! If I wrote this, would you read it? I hope so. Because I'm still writing this. Bye! 💙💚

-Taylor

P.S. a little spoiler: I will be in every fan fiction. In every fan fiction I'll have a role, so stay tuned to see what do I do here!