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when im gone

okay so this is going to be about alevaro BECAUSE IM BORED AS FUCK.

update wtf hi uhm ik its been awhile i apologize ive literally been shit for the past couple of months but ty all for being patient with me ily all <3

alevaro angst

alejandros pov

i walk into mine and alvaros shared apartment. the lights were off and there was no sad except for the AC running. i set my keys down and walk to mine and his shared bedroom, and start to get ready for bed. while i went to the closet everything that alvaro owned was gone. i immediately freak out and run to my phone and call him. im sent straight to voicemail, i try texting him but i was kept on delivered.

i go back to our room and find a note which i didnt see before on the pillow he usually sleeps on.

dear alejandro,

im guessing you've probably just seen all my clothes gone and tried to call, i wont answer. there are things that i havent told you and im sorry. me and you were never going to last so i just enjoyed us while we lasted. i know you are worried right now but i promise you im okay. im with my dad and yes i know how crazy that sounds considering me and him havent talked since 5 years ago but i need a new beginning, a fresh start. i love you with all my heart alejandro but for me to be with you would just be selfish. you've given up so much for me which you really shouldnt have. you declined the job in New York, you stopped talking to your bestfriends just because of how they thought of us, you threw your whole life away for me and you never should have.

i want you too get a good job and a better boyfriend who can give you everything you love and deserve that i just couldnt. im sorry for having to leave you and im sorry for ruining your life but now im letting you go so im not holding you back.

thank you for everything. thank you for showing me how to love again when i thought it was truly impossible, thank you for loving every bit of me when i couldnt love myself, thank you for showing me the best things in life, and thank you for helping me be happy again.

there is no right way to ever say how thankful i am for you but thank you. for truly everything youve done for me but this is where we have to say goodbye.

in another life time we will be together my love, i promise
                                                       love,
                                                                alvaro

i was in tears. i never thought we would have to say goodbye. he means the world to me and this is just absolutely heartbreaking.

i put the paper away in a shoe box i have with letters me and alvaro used to send eachother.

i decided to call my mom.

"hello darling." my mothers voice spoke. oh god how ive missed hearing her voice. "hey mama." i said my voice hoarse.

you could hear the change in her voice. "ale whats wrong dear?" my mother asked concerned. i couldnt even hold it in any more so i started balling. "he left me mama, hes living with his dad and apologized to me for having to give up everything for him but i wouldnt have it any other way. he thinks its his fault me and the boys arent friends anymore and he thinks its his fault for me giving up the job in New York. mama it hurts like it really hurts. i miss him so much. he always knew we were going to have to say goodbye, he just never thought it would be so soon. gosh i want him to be here so i can tell him it isnt his fault." i sobbed into the phone.

my mother sighed, she hated me being upset. "dear alvaro has always been the best thing thats happened to you. he probably knew he would have to leave because somewhere in his heart he always thought you deserved better. he loved you more than words can describe and i know he wishes he did better with your whole relationship," she explained. you could hear her sadness. "someone told me the worst amount of pain is letting go the ones you love and dear its going to hurt i know it is but you have to stay strong. i want you to come home for awhile so youre not alone. and when you get here we can eat ice cream and watch christmas movies okay?"

i sniffled, "okay mama ill see you soon thank you for everything." i said. you could practically hear her smile. "youre welcome my sweet boy. i love you" i smiled for the first time in hours, "i love you too."

i packed some clothes and stuff i would need. i didnt want to be in this house without alvaro, it didnt feel like home without him.

i called a cab and put my stuff in the trunk. as i sat in the car watching the city lights shine i knew i was going to be okay.

alvaros pov

as i set the letter down on the pillow tears were in my eyes. i never wanted to leave him, i was being forced. my dad found me and even the worst parts of my father and i's past i couldnt dare tell alejandro about.

i grabbed my bags and pulled the to his car, he dat in the drivers seat with a smug look on his face.

when i got into the car he chuckled "i always knew you loved that boy but he deserves better. now lets get going."

i nodded because nothing could come out of my mouth without it being sobs.

he was taking me back to his house 5 hours away from alejandro and making me marry one of his friends daughters. gosh i miss him so much and if i get the chance to kill the man i sadly call my father i will and run back to alejandro. ill cuddle him in my arms and explain everything.

i love him so much and today was the worst day of my entire life knowing in just a couple of hours he will read that note and i will be long gone.

one day ill see him again...

i promise.