Introduced (Reece Bibby fanfiction)

Chapter 30

I woke up, slumped on the bathroom floor, to someone banging on the door.

"Is anyone even bloody in there? I've been waiting for 10 minutes" I heard Charlie say angrily. I looked around. It was daylight because the sun was shining but it looked foggy outside. There was a half empty packet of pills on the floor, some of the contents scattered on the ground and the rest still clenched in my hand. A broken razor lay next to the packet and beside that was the razor blade. I looked down at my arm to see the mess that I'd made. It was covered in dark red, dried blood from deep cuts that covered the whole of my left forearm. I closed my eyes and rested my head on the wall behind me, a few tears seeping out of the corners of my eyes. I heard a loud bang on the door again.

"Yeah sorry Charlie, I'll come out now, I just needed some time to myself" I sniffed, wiping my eyes and unlocking the door. As soon as I opened the door Charlie stopped me walking off.

"What's up?" He asked. I shook my head, trying not to get upset again. "Alice?" He persisted, taking hold of my hand and catching sight of my arm since I was wearing a short sleeved top. I covered my face with my hands and turned away, resting my head against the wall.

"Alice, it's okay, I promise you're going to fine" Charlie said, turning me back around and hugging me.

"No, just leave me alone, please" I replied, pulling away and walking towards my room.

"Alice wait" he said, stopping me and pulling off his jacket. "Don't let Reece see please, it'll break him. Wear this for now and say you were cold." I grabbed the jacket and walked into the room. Reece was in there packing some things up because we were all going down to London for a weekend and then all of the boys were going home for Christmas.

"Hey babe, you okay? Where've you been? I've been up for half an hour and you weren't here when I woke up. And who's jacket is that?" He asked all in one. I walked over to my suitcase and started to pack some last minute things.

"Yeah I'm fine. I just went to get some breakfast and was cold so Charlie lent me his jacket. Then I just got a bit upset in the bathroom, that's all" I replied.

"So you've eaten then?" Reece asked, giving me a stern look. I nodded, not bothering to tell him the truth. "Good. Well get dressed then because we need to leave soon to get the train." He left to go to the bathroom and I quickly pulled on some clothes that I had laid out the other night. I put my hair up in a bun and applied my normal make up as Reece came in and took both of our cases downstairs.

When I got downstairs all of the boys were ready and waiting. They were all excited because they were headlining a gig on the Sunday night and performing a few new singles. Some of the boys were also meeting up with their girlfriends, who I was really good friends with already. My friend Jes, who I went to the X Factor tour with, couldn't make it to London but her and Chris were still together and saw each other quite regularly. Charlie was meeting up with his girlfriend of a few months Tarlya, Jake was seeing Toni, who he had been with for just under a year, and Barclay was seeing his new girlfriend Emma. My friend Leah was also in London because she went with Emma and I think she was hoping things would happen between her and Casey because she really liked him.

We arrived at the station and had already booked our tickets so we went out onto the platform because our train was due in about 5 minutes. I was the first onto the platform and looked around. Our platform was empty but there were five girls on the one opposite. I stopped in my tracks, causing Reece to bump into me and the others behind him did the same. Fuck. It had to be those 5 girls. Natalie and Rebecca and their three other friends. My heart was beating fast. They were going to say stuff about me, about Reece. Oh shit why did they have to be here?

"Babe it's okay" Reece said, taking my hand as we crowded onto the small platform and put our bags and suitcases down behind us.

"Hey Rebecca, isn't that the hot lad you snogged at that party about a month ago?" One girl, Olivia, practically shouted. All the girls looked up. I stared down at the floor, praying for it to swallow me up.

"Hey baby, why'd you never get in touch again?" Rebecca said to Reece, playing with her hair and putting on a sickly sweet voice.

"Because you're an asshole that's why" Reece replied.

"Don't, please don't start anything" I whispered to him, giving him a pleading look. He put his arm around me and told me it would be fine.

"Oh my fucking God. No way. What the fuck is he doing with that skank?" Olivia exclaimed, not sounding surprised at all. There were sniggers from all of the girls and they began to shout things to me.

"You're a fucking tramp you know that"

"You're an ugly slag"

"Why the hell would he rather be with you than me, who would ever want to be with you?"

"Why would anyone even want to be friends with you? I don't know why those lads are putting up with you. They probably don't even like you and just feel sorry for you because you're a fucking freak. Why don't you just go and die because it would do us all a favour. You have the perfect opportunity while you're at a train station." Olivia called across the platform as their train came into view. I heard footsteps and saw James and Tom storming up the stairs, over the bridge to the other platform. I ran after them and grabbed James' arm to stop him but couldn't get to Tom.

"Tom don't please, you'll only make it worse. I can't let it get worse please" I said. He turned around and came back down the stairs towards me. I had tears running down my face and was still clutching onto James' arm.

"Alice I'm not letting them speak to you like that, it's out of order. You know that none of it is true and I'm sick of seeing you this upset about it and we need to sort it out" Tom said, wiping tears off my cheek, before turning and walking over the bridge. I collapsed into James' arms and he just hugged me tight. I began to hear shouting from the other platform.

"Right listen here you little slut" Tom was saying. "Don't you ever dare to tell her to kill herself again. Don't you dare tell her that we don't care about her. Don't even fucking think about it. Alice means a lot to us lads, and whether she means something to you or not, there's no reason to treat her like shit like you are doing. You don't know her, you've never bothered to get to know her so why the fuck do you feel the need to bully her everyday. You don't know what that could do to her. What if she jumped on that train track now eh? You'd be as good as a murderer. You make me fucking sick. You and all your mates thinking you're hard telling someone to kill themselves. Bigging yourself up by making someone else feel like shit doesn't make you any better. Get that into your tiny brains, get over yourself and never bother her again."

Tom turned around and walked back over the bridge as the girls train pulled into the station. They all seemed shocked that Tom had said something and to be honest I felt better about it. But I still felt like shit. I walked back to the platform and waited for our train, which was now delayed.

"Speeding train approaching platform one. Please step away from the edge." the overhead tannoy announced. I looked down the tracks and saw a train that wasn't planning on stopping. I then looked up and saw the 5 girls sat at the train window, with pieces of paper saying "JUMP!" on them. I took one step forwards towards the edge.

"Alice" Reece said behind me. Another step forwards. The girls were right, they didn't care. A few of the other lads said my name and I heard shuffling behind me. I looked up again to see that the train was getting closer. I could hear it against the tracks. I took one more step so my feet were half off the edge. I looked back at the train. I was going to do this and no one was going to stop me. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths. The noise of the train was getting louder, I could hear shouting behind me, my heart was beating faster than it ever had before. One more step and I'd be happy, finally. I began counting in my head as a few tears rolled slowly down my face.

Three. Two. One.