Dear best friend, I broke him

My angel

It's been a year, a year since the person I needed the most left me. She is a beautiful angel now, watching over me. I know this seems crazy but before she died she told me there was one thing and one thing only she expected me to do. I knew she trusted me and it had to be done. The trip wouldn't be easy. And I'm not sure how it's to be done.

My best friends name was Amy. For over five years she suffered from cancer. She had two people by her side. Me and Gat. Gat WAS a wonderful guy, then he broke her heart. Her heart in millions and millions of pieces. She was hurt for so long, you could say to the day that she died. I wish he died that day instead. The only thing she wanted to do was REVENGE. She didn't manage to do it tho since she got so sick. Her last words was: you know what to do Millan. It scares me to this day.

I spent so many hours crying in my room. I haven't been to school for almost a year. The school calls my mom almost everyday, today I will have to return. Returning means meet Gat. No more escaping. But how could you see the guy who broke the person you loved the most. Amy lived for me, but I lived because of Amy. Now that she is gone, i'm gone.

So here I am, Emilia Mia Johnson standing alone outside the classroom i'm meant to walk into. Class started 10 minutes ago but the principal told me how serious it was that i've been gone. No one in school knows about the loss of Amy because her parents don't want people to know. Weird right. But today was the day they would find out. I would have to storm into that classroom stand in-front of my class, tell them everything and then somehow not cry. WHAT ARE HER PARENTS THINKING???

My teacher opened the door making me step inside. The faces, they all looked at me.
"Class, Emilia has something very serious to say" Mrs.Smith said, "so please listen this is so hard for her."

"Well", I started, "I haven't been attending school for soon a year, and I know some of you may be wondering why. You all know Amy right. The girl with the brown hair and green eyes and the brightest smile of all time. She.. is.. gone", A tear fell down my chin saying that sentence. Everyone where watching me. I took a deep breath and began to speak again, "She couldn't take it anymore, the cancer went to far and my baby is an angel now. Watching over us.", I stopped speaking and ran out of the classroom. I saw gat running after me. His steps where long.

"MILLAN WAIT UP RIGHT NOW", he screamed, " WAIT PLEASE TALK TO ME!", I stopped running.

"YOU BROKE HER HEART SO NOW WHAT", I said with an angry voice, "you know whats funny, when people are gone thats when the bitches speak up. So why do you care, whats the plot?"

"Please Emilia from the bottom of my heart, I'm here to help you", He said kindly. "I really did love her, I'm sorry I broke her heart"

"You are saying sorry to the wrong person Gat, she is gone. Do I have to spell it out for you?" I said, another tear fell down.
"Gat don't do this again"

"GAT WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO HER, SHE IS A PSYCHO!", Someone from behind us said. The voice was unfamiliar.

"Babe please just a moment" Gat said looking at the girl, "please?"

"no." She said walking up to us, "hi, i'm Joline. Get away from my boyfriend."

"I gladly will, thanks joline", I said with an ironic smile, "of course gat, of course!" I walked of.

I ran out away from the school, away from everything. To the tree, I sat down took out a book from my little bag and started reading.

"I knew it", it was gat, "you know girls are so easy to find." He sat down beside me.

"What gat, didn't i make myself clear", I said not even looking up from the book, "do you wanna say whats really funny? That boys don't know what enough is"

"No that is not whats funny", he said, "something that is funny is that girls don't ask for help, help comes to you"

"You're trouble not help", I said.

"Tell me about her", Gat demanded.

"I don't wanna speak about her", I said now looking up from the book, "you broke her Gat."

"Okay, so break me", He said. Well duh that was my whole plan, If you only knew Gat.

"I will never she her smile again, never hear her laugh, never feel the touch of her. Never again, do you know how that feels", I cried again.

"ARE YOU DUMB? Thats all I know, the moment we where over. Millan I know more that you think", He said. Wait whats that he was crying again. And maybe I should look at things from a new perspective, for once.

"Why did you leave her then, you had the chance to keep her", It just came out of my mouth.

"Leading her on was the wrong thing, you know that. Letting her go, would set her free. I'm so so so sorry it didn't", He said sounding hurt for the first time.

"Who is joline?", I said for once looking at him.

"My.. girlfriend", he said ashamed.

"Well, I heard enough", I said getting up and walking of once again.
I ran thorough the forest afraid of Gat following me. He actually did sound hurt, but why. And he moved on. But is still hurt? I have to many questions but no answers and I can't just ask.

Oh no not joline.