Journey beyond the well

The beginning

I remembered vividly, it was mid July 2020. Couple months after the pandemic hit and everything shut down. Shops, restaurants, hair salons, cafes, parks everything I could think of closed. I remembered sitting in my bedroom looking outside the windows, not one person walking around the little indoor park in our apartment building. So sad. Never had I imagined I would live in an era of this pandemic. Crazy yet surreal.
I decided to stop taking my anxiety medication. Not quite sure if that was the right idea to do in the middle of pandemic but hey,,, I made up my mind and it is not easy for me to change it again once I decided on something.
July went by,,, nothing really happening. I realized I am more open and vulnerable but that's normal, after years of being guarded with the medication I forgot how to feel anymore. Pandemic helped because then I have the whole time working on myself. Reintroduced myself to me, reliving emotions I have been ignoring and pushed away.
Everything seemed normal. I went to work, went home, walked my dog (alone), basically all I did was be by myself and my dog. I went out spending time in nature, painted. Again, nothing really happening until then...