Spin the bottle|| Billie eilish

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Me and Billie have been talking for months and I just get to know her more and more everyday. Her life is a lot more interesting than you think. But when it got down to talking about mental health it was a struggle for the both of us. ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️TW⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️
Billie has been struggling with suicide. She told me how one time she was at this hotel and she thought,"this was how I was going to die". But thankfully her mom was there to you know save her. I talked about my family problems and my drunk mom and what have you. Billie would just hug me and comfort me and I would do the same with her. I felt safe and loved knowing that she was there for me whenever I needed her. We were at a fast food restaurant together also known as taco Bell and Billie ordered 15 burritos,"15 BURRITOS???GOD DAMN BILL". She rolled her eyes at me as the person at the window handed us the bag of food. Billie parked and we sat in the car and ate,"are you sure you're going to be able to eat all those burritos?". She nodded eagerly as she was on her 3rd already.

This bitch is OBSESSED with taco bell. It's one of the things she always talks about. We talked about life and shit. Nothing important. I've recently been catching feelings for her because she drives me crazy. Bills perfect. Her nose, eyes, lips face shape, everything is perfect. Billie was ranting about her friendship with her brother and how they are so close but they also get in the dumbest arguments. I listen to every single detail when she talks. We finished our food and we started heading back to her place which is where I was staying for the weekend. when we got home we decided to catch up on some homework because this girl was over here FAILING classes,"billie I can't believe your FAILING 4 classes.

Billie rolled her eyes,"shut up I'm a very busy person and I HATE studying". I laughed softly while I was teaching her some algebra. This bitch was looking at me with a hella confused face the whole time,"how the fuck does that even work!?". Billie was so confused and we just laughed the whole time. we finished studying together and decided to watch a movie together while eating popcorn. We were watching this romance movie I don't really know what it was but she just picked it. It was about this lesbian couple that ran away together and lived in this cottage in the woods it was like a fantasy. it got down to this one scene where they were in bed and they started like making out and shit. I got heated when they got on top of eachother and billie adjusted her pants a little bit,she place the popcorn on the side table. They were really getting at it in the movie. I tried so hard not to laugh.

Billie was breathing heavily. I looked over at her and asked,"bill are you okay". She murmured,"oh yeah I'm fine-". We made eye contact and just looked at eachother. Billie would look in my eyes then my lips then back up to my eyes. I said in my head,fuck it. I kissed billie deeply. Billie tugged on my shirt,pulling me onto her lap. Holding onto my waist. Our makeout got deeper. Billie traced her hands up and down my body. She'd let out groans every now and then. Fuck she was hot. She adjusted herself so I was fully on top of her. Then I thought,we were just friends. I pulled back and said,"billie...". She looked at me with a small disappointed face. I whispered,"we can't...". I wanted to but it would be weird because what if she didn't like me back? I had alot of feelings for her but I don't know if she felt the same way. I got off of her and got up telling her,"I gotta use the restroom".

I walked out of her room, and headed down the hallway towards the bathroom. Bill walked out of her room seeing me head downstairs,"wait where are you going Val?". I told her,"I don't want to ruin our friendship". she was confused by what I meant but I didn't want to tell her that I liked her. Loved her. I went out the front door and I walked home on the sidewalk because my house was about 10 minutes away from Billies. I felt really bad so I decided I was going to text her whenever I got home. I just straight up and left her but I didn't want to be embarrassed. because what if I told her I liked her and I ruined our friendship because she didn't like me back. What if all we do is just friendship things to her. Or what if

she doesn't even like girls. My thoughts were taking over and I started to tear up about the thought of them. But it didn't even matter. I made it home and pulled out my phone to call Billie instead of texting. The phone rang one time before she picked up. She picked up really fast every single time we called. she asked," what's wrong do you need anything? ". I said,"I'm sorry about what I did at your house I was just scared". I was sniffling through the phone. Billie beamed,"nonono it's not your fault val, I pulled you on top of me it's my fault.I should have waited for your consent but I didn't know if you were ready so it's okay if you're not". I wiped my tears. I said,"billie can you sleepover at my house?". She smiled through the phone,"of course I can I'll be there soon,my angel...".

(ANGEL???YALL.... VAL HAS A CRUSH😏😏😏🤝 BOUTS TO START DRAMA THO))