*Zayn's POV*
My mind went blank. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out. Jesus Christ, this was entirely out of the blue! I mean I have suspected that something might be going on between Harry and Louis but I thought I was just being a malicious bloke!
Oh God, now Louis is peering to me with fearful eyes and I can't help but tell him, "It's okay, Lou. Everything's gonna be fine" and I patted his back.
"No it's not." Louis sniffed, "I know you're only saying that, Zayn. You know that everything will not be fine." He punched my arm lightly as he tried to smile but failed miserably.
“Are you sure you’re in love with Harry?” I asked uncertainly. Maybe he was just getting ahead of himself, you know?
“I.. I think so…” Lou replied as he breathed deeply. “What am I gonna do, Zayn? What if Harry finds out? What if it ruins our friendship? I don’t wanna lose my best mate, Zayn. I don’t!”
“Shhhh. Shhh. You know that will never happen, right? Haz will be your best mate no matter what. You know how tight you both are..” I replied, unable to say anything else. “Are you planning on telling Harry?
“What?” Of course not! Are you mental?!” Lou screeched as if it was not at all an option.
“Calm down, Lou, calm down.” I replied, holding my hands up in surrender. “I was just asking. Anyway, when did you realize all this?”
“A long time, now…” he looked down, playing with his fingers. “I was just scared at being…. You know.. gay.”
“Aww, Boobear.” I patted his back “You know we won’t judge you and we’ll love you no matter what, right?”
“I know that, Zayn. It’s just… what will the fans think? And how about management? Do you think they’ll be happy to find out 1/5 of the biggest boyband in the world is GAY? I think not! Plus, what about my family? What about my mum? And Harry? “ his voice cracked at the last sentence and began sobbing again. My heart was breaking in the scene that I am witnessing.
“Lou, shhhh. Stop crying, mate. Please?” I gave him another hug. All five of us were practically brothers already, a lot of hugging doesn’t bother us anymore.
"I feel bad for El, Zayn." he whispered as he continued to sob quietly.
"Don't. At least you didn't lead her on." I sighed, thinking of El's reaction when Louis told him. "You did tell El abut the truth, right? About Harry?"
I felt him nod. Good, I thought.
“I’m sc-scared, Zayn…” he sniffed, sobbing in my shoulders. I could feel the sleeve of my shirt getting wet, but I ignored it.
“Don’t be. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here.” I flashed him a reassuring smile.
“Thanks, man.” He smiled weakly and sighed.
“Now, why don’t you come with us to the mall and shop for Nicole’s party?”
“Oh yeah, sure. Let me change first.” Lou replied, shuffling to his feet.
I nodded as I began walking to the door, I was gonna change my clothes myself.
“Zayn?” Louis called and I looked back.
“Yes, Lou?”
“Thanks.” He smiled thankfully, “and please don’t mention any of this to anyone just yet. I’m not ready.”
“I won’t.” I grinned and left the room.
What a dramatic morning it has been.
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More Than This (A One Direction Fan Fic) DISCONTINUED BECAUSE CARROT
ФанфикStaying at a hotel was the plan since Nicole and Hazel lived too far from the concert venue of One Direction. But then, as they were staying in their hotel rooms, they heard a commotion outide so they went out to find out what was causing the noise...
