The Cards You've Hidden, Been Dealt & are on the Table

Chapter Fifteen-Lilliana

Hey guys I'm sorry it's been a while I've been super busy. Life has been hectic and I've had a lot of work. Every time I made a plan to sit down and write it got shot down and I had other stuff done. I've been stressed and I think a little (or more than a little) sleep deprived plus it was that time too. So I'm sorry this took a while. It's shorter than what it could be but I'm sorry I figured something was better than nothing.

I was also trying to write the song that you'll hear about in this chapter and it was out of my comfort zone and I don't think it was really good so maybe in the future but not yet guys sorry.

I'm not trying to plug and get followers but if I can't post or if something happens I'll post it on my profile unless it's major then I'll post on here but I don't want to make author notes every time that an update will be late. If it helps I've got a little of books on my reading lists that are good for people to look at and I'll follow back. Feel free to recommend your stuff to me to I'll give it a read.

So song for the chapter is random being "My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark" by Fall Out Boy. If you got a recommendation for the chapter label it in the comments 'chapter' for a want to here label it 'future'.

Here is chapter 15 once again sorry for the wait.

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     We made it back to the room about an hour and a half ago. The boys decided to let us have a little adjustment and process time. Especially considering the appointment from earlier.

     Currently Lu and I are sitting on the bed. I'm leaning against the headboard and Lu is laying down in front of me on his stomach with his notebook laying between us. We're writing a new song and so far we're in the middle of the chorus. We've been trying to do the music and the lyrics but we can't really decide what to do or how exactly we want it to sound. Normally, we would use the rundown music room in our old school and mess around with the instruments since I know so many and we'd both sing some stuff as well. Just coming up with ideas, testing them out and letting the music and out creativeness flow through.

     The problem is or I should say are though that: one, we don't have any instruments. Two I'm pretty sure if I try to sing too much with my ribs in their current shape it's gonna hurt. I mean I sang on the streets but that was a must. We needed the money. So now I can only really sing softly and not really too much or at a belt yet which is kind of depressing.

     So the song we're working on is kind of about what we've been through. Our past, the mental and more. We don't really know at this point it's still under construction and you never really know until everything is finished.

     "Luke, what do you think of them?" I break away from the current pondering about the last line we were working on.

     He closes the notebook and rests his head in his hand. "I don't know Lily. I mean they are our brothers that is obviously certain at this point. I feel like we can trust them. To an extent of course. I mean for one we don't know them really at all. Two, they are not just in the mafia they run the mafia. I think we just have to be careful." I agree with a nod.

     "Yeah, I mean I want to trust them. They helped us out a lot so far. Who knows how much longer we would have been able to avoid him. He was probably looking for us. They treated our wounds. They've fed us. They helped us in the alley. They've been nice so far. But I can't help but be afraid of them to not trust them. After...after everything we've been through I can't help it. I want to but...how are we supposed to be able to?" I finish off as Lu changes position to be seated next to me with his arm around me and me curled into him.

     "I know. It's hard for me too. I know it's not as bad as what you are feeling but I'm constantly just trying to make sure we're both safe and protected. I think they can do that for us. As for the whole trusting thing. Trust is earned Lily and we'll just be observant and careful." He speaks reassuringly and I know his words are genuine. He will protect me like I will protect him we're twins and we're best friends. I've got his back and he's got mine.