Let's Play

Nightmares

A/N: This chapter involves drinking and rape. I know this can be triggering to some, so please skip this chapter if so.

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Jessika

I sat there in shock as her lips remained on mine. It's been years since she had admitted these kinds of feelings towards me. Has she been living with this in her heart for all this time? 

I placed my hands on her shoulders gently as I pulled our lips apart. I could tell Kat was hurt but this wasn't something that could happen when she was drunk. I needed to make sure her head was clear if we were going to talk about something this deep. Also, I had a strict rule against sleeping with someone who was drunk. I don't care who you are, man or woman, that wasn't a line I was willing to cross.

"C'mon, Kat, let's get you to bed." 

Kat's hand came up to push a strand of hair behind me ear. There was a distant longing in her eyes that caused a knot to form in my stomach. "Please," Kat said, "Just for one night."

I shook my head as I pulled her up off the couch. Her drunken knees buckled as she attempted to stand and my arms wrapped around her small frame to keep her up. "Kat, hun, you know my rule when it comes to being drunk."

I felt her chuckle softly against my chest as we started slowly towards the room. "Oh, ya. I thought maybe your were rejecting me cuz I was ugly. Either that, or you're sleeping with that sexy boss of yours."

My body stiffened at her comment, scared that she knew I had been lying all along. But she didn't seem to notice as she crashed down onto her bed. Within seconds a soft snore escaped her lips. She was out cold.

I sighed and made my way to the shower. I was looking forward to using my own body wash to rid myself of Damien's scent. I spent more time in the shower than I normally did, scrubbing my skin until it felt as though I had a whole new layer. But as I stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself in a towel,  it felt as though something was missing. Damien's scent had provided me a comfort that I didn't know I needed. 

Damien was starting to grow on me. He was starting to earn a special place in my life. He was starting to warm my frozen heart. And I don't know if I was grateful for that or if I needed for it to stop.

I decided that I definitely needed to sleep. My tired brain was starting to think crazy thoughts and I just needed to sleep off the craziness of today. When I got to my bed, I couldn't help but smile. Kat had gotten me a whole new bed set. The covers were a soft, fluffy pink and I wasted no time wrapping myself up in its warmth. 

I thought about what Kat had said on the couch as I attempted to fall asleep. Tears sprung to my eyes and I cursed at myself. Kat was my best friend, and I didn't want to lose her. But that's all she was to me, my friend. If what Kat said was true, and she still had deeper feelings for me, I don't know what that could mean. I wouldn't be able to give Kat what she wanted. 

I thought about the night that Kat had first admitted her feelings for me. It was a night I tried so hard to forget. Because that was the same night my life turned upside down. I drifted off to sleep, happy to escape my own thoughts.

But what I didn't realize was that sleep wasn't going to let me escape this time. In fact, it was going to do the exact opposite. 

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Jessika- High School

As Kat and I stepped through the front door of my house, the smell of my mom's cooking instantly had my mouth watering. I could tell by the smell that she was making gumbo, my favorite.