I was in the hospital.saturday night,empty hall,open mouth,closed lungs.I thought physical pain would be better than emotional pain,always did.I was dead wrong.physical pain eats you alive.your body is in the command and there's nothing you can do to stop its work.even though i felt the air burning my pink walls I had no way to stop feeling it,to stop burning. so,you see,emotional pain can be controlled.when I'm depressed and depression waves hit me hard...I've learned how to swim.I dive in a bluish black sea and graciously flap my tail. It is red and blue with shades of cool.I've been diving for so long the sea recognized me as one of its own.Which is funny because my zodiac sign belongs to the water ones.and maybe I do belong to the sea.I just haven't decided if I want to be a mermaid,full time. It would evolve stop being human,part time.I haven't told anyone that I am a mermaid.I haven't told anyone I stop breathing everyday just so I don't end up in a fire place.I just hold my breath to the point I am miserable so I can dive and swim again.and again,and again.
I've always been someone's something.but never was I something to myself.there's a whole sea inside of me,drowning me endlesly.fish tails don't belong in here.I destroyed myself only to be socially fit.I'm tired of holding my breath to be free maybe I preffer being stuck in my secret sea.
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Glory & Gore
Non-FictionMia is a normal girl,or so you think.Mia kathryn is 17 years old and is,in fact,an unique girl.when she finds her old notebook she keeps it and starts dragging it everywhere she goes.haunted by who she is,who she wants to be and who her ghosts tell...
