It started a few years ago.. I woke up just like any other day.. excited to walk out the door and face the world.. I was always so happy.. never had anything to be upset over. Very bubbly and always in a great mood.. but I walked out the door that day and I feel into this trap.. banged my head on the hard concrete of the reality that life isn't sprinkles and kittens. I went on with life scared.. hiding from my problems. I turned to friends and started losing them one by one. I'd make a new friend and without even telling them anything personal they'd leave a week later. I got so sick of people I became bitter towards them and just wanted to choke everyone.. All I wanted was to be alone and hide.. All I ever wanted was for someone to care.. but they didnt. They just traded hugs for knives that they then stabbed me with. Over and over they toar me apart.. I hear them laugh in my head. I hear the joy they get when they throw me away. I trusted no one. Not even family.. they wouldn't understand.. After all I am pretty stupid.. useless.. why would anyone want to hang around me.. I decided one day I was done. I quit.. I just cant take it anymore.. I'm being imprisoned in my own body. My thoughts don't feel like me.. Please stop bullying people. It's not funny.. at all.. I just hope when you see me in my casket you'll find something to point at and laugh.. make the whole room erupt in laughter at my lifeless body..
