I Lost My Everything (One Shot Story)

ILME- One shot story

It was 13th day of February when my man called over the phone and asked me if I was free that time. I gave him a question why and he said that he wanted to meet me daw, like wtf? It was 10:52pm for pete's sake pero dahil mahalaga daw, pumayag na ako.
I dressed myself comfortably and drove to our meeting place. I saw him, sitting on a bench while waiting for me. When he felt my presence, he walked towards me and hug me tightly.
Nakaramdam ako ng mali sakanya, and I was right. He was crying on my shoulder at 'di ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko. I asked him what's the matter but he just said, it was nothing. After that, pinauwi na n'ya ako kasi masyado na daw malamig sa labas, tinanong ko s'ya kung ano bang problema at hating gabi, tumawag pa s'ya tapos makikipagkita nalang bigla. He always replied to me that he just missed me and craving for my cuddle.
Pagkarating ko sa bahay, I received a text from him, saying how much he loves me, I texted back to him and greeted him a goodnight message.

February 14, I woke up happily because this is the day that I've waiting for. I cleaned myself up and wore my favorite red dress, I am ready to meet my love. Pero sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhada, my man's parents called me and they told me that my love was already gone, he was killed... by his own hands.
He hang his self on his room because he can't accept the fact that we can't be together. Nung una'y naguguluhan ako until his mom gave me a letter, a letter that he wrote before he did that. It says that before he called me that night, he discovered something about us. Something bullsh*t that gave him a reason to end his life, for 4 years of being together, bakit ngayon lang namin nalaman 'to? Pinaglalaruan ba kami ng tadhana? Hindi pala kami pwede pero bakit n'ya pinatagal pa.
That day, I lost my world. Hindi ko alam kung paano makakaahon, hindi ko alam kung paano mabubuhay lalo na't oras oras, minu minuto'y pumapasok s'ya sa isip ko.

Life's sucks. They all say that everything happens for a reason but until now, I don't know what are the reasons behind this sh*t and why I need to experience this kind of pain. I lost my man and at the same time I lost my brother that was missing 18 years ago...

Yes, he's my brother. My brother who supposed to be my protector when I was got bullied by my elementary classmates back then. My brother who supposedly be my pillow every time I need someone to cry and to hold on. My brother who can be my father since I had no one. A brother who can be my best friend, my savior and a teacher who could teach me something about how rude the world is but I had a boyfriend, a boyfriend who supposedly be my brother.
I know that what we both did was so wrong. Wrong in the eyes of society and God but I never regretted that I met him as my partner, because it was our choice, to love each other first than to know ourselves first. There was no wrong with that.

Siguro, kung nalaman lang rin namin ang katotohanan ng mas maaga, magiging masaya pa kami. We can accept the fact since hindi na namin 'yon matatakbuhan at nalaman na namin ang katotohanan bago pa kami tumagal at nagmahalan ng lubusan. Hindi ko man siya nakilala bilang isang kapatid, at least naramdaman ko naman kung papaano siya magmahal. I hope that on the next chapter of our next life, I'd finally love him not as my partner, but as my own beloved brother. Gusto ko ma experience kung paano magkaroon ng isang kuyang katulad niya.

Even if I already know the truth, still I had nothing, because I lost my everything.

—END.