The Space Between a Rock and a Hard Place|OT4

. 4 .

"Calum, I hear Luke asked to hang out with you, yeah?" Michael asks in a serious voice as he enters calums room. Calums eyes snap up, his heart beating and breathing already heavy from the panic attack he's just managing to come down from.

"Um, yeah?" He answers, worried he'll be in trouble. Is Luke downstairs still? Is Michael going to punish him? Is Luke going to hear it? He doesn't want it to be so obvious he's such a bad submissive compared to Luke.

"And you told him no?" Michael raises an eyebrow. Calum breathes shakily.

"Well..." he doesn't wanna lie. "Kind of. I told him I don't know..." Calum answers timidly. If Michael looked closer he'd see calums hands shaking.

"Why?" Michael asks. Calum cowers, head bowing, feeling cold and nauseous.

"I-just, I don't know. Do I have to?" He asks and then realizes that that sounds way worse than he meant it to. Shit. He fucked yo again. Michael rolls his eyes.

"Why are you such a brat? Luke is super nice and trying to get to know you and you're still being rude and cold to him and making him feel unwanted and think he should stop hanging out with us." Michael scolds and Calum whimpers. Luke told them this? To get him in trouble? Does Luke want him out of the picture entirely?

"I-I'm Sorry, that's not what I meant to happen, I didn't mean to make him upset or be rude-" Calum starts speaking quickly, gasping between sentences.

"We talked about this last time, Calum. I'm disappointed that we have to have this conversation again. When Ashton gets back you're getting a punishment." Calum starts crying finally. He hates how he feels, he wants to disappear. He hates disappointing his doms, and he has no idea how to do better. "You're going to be nice to Luke and you're going to hang out with him, just you two, the next time he's available. And if we hear you were anything but a sweet polite angel and did anything but your very best to get along with and get to know Luke then you'll be getting punished again, you hear me?" Michael sounds so angry and disappointed. Sobs start racking calums body. They sit in silence, other than calums cries.

"Yes sir, I'm sorry sir." Calum whimpers, finally able to get the words out. They hear the door open and close downstairs and Ashton comes up.

"What the hell Calum? Luke is super nice and there's no reason to treat him like that." Ashton sounds much more angry than Michael. Calum wants to argue, wonders why Luke is telling them he's been rude. He's a good submissive, though. He stays quiet and just cries.

"I'm sorry sir." He answers through sobs.

"You're getting the paddle and then we're both gonna fuck you with a cockring on you and then maybe when we're done you'll get to cum."

Calum doesn't argue, he follows their orders and gets on his knees, laying with his bum in the air and quietly accepting the paddling, sobbing and screeching at the pain of every smack across his bare ass with the wooden paddle, but not begging or speaking despite the pain. They slip the cockring on him and he feels fingers at his hole and jerks away, suddenly feeling horrible at the idea of sex right now, hyperventilating. He tries to get out of the position and they keep him there. He feels trapped and claustrophobic. He wants to crawl into somewhere dark and disappear.

"No, please no I don't want to-" he's cut off.

"It's a punishment Calum, we don't care about what you want." Ashton answers. Calum feels like he's gonna pass out, he can't breath at all.

"No! No I don't wanna have sex I don't want it! I don't wanna be touched!" He yells out. The dominants frown, pausing. Since the first time they'd had sex with the boy he's not once denied them sex. Still, it's a punishment... "I'll take more spanking and hang out with Luke, don't touch me, please." The boy cries.

"Calum, what's your color?" Michael asks frantically. Calum shakes his head, this isn't a BDSM thing, he can physically handle more. It's emotional. Calums not sure if he would consider himself Demi-sexual (only sexually attracted to those you have an emotional bond with already,) he feels sexual attraction towards those he doesn't have emotional bonds with, but the idea of having sex with anyone he doesn't has always made him feel sick and wrong, and he doesn't feel all that emotionally bonded with his dominants right now. He wants nothing to do with them, to be honest. He wishes he felt different, he wishes he could have sex with them and make them love him again, but he couldn't possibly.

"its not- I just- if you make me do this I'm- I- I'll go stay at malis." He says through sobs, still fighting to get away. He doesn't want to tell them he's safewording, he's never used the safe word before. He hates the idea of having to use the safe word, his dominants not just being able to tell when he's had enough. He also doesn't want to tell them he'll consider it rape, but he will. He's said no, he'll have to reconsider everything if they don't listen.

"Okay, okay Calum. Here, would you like to put your clothes on?" Ashton asks, feeling confused and panicked. Calum nods and Ashton helps him into his clothes, sitting on the bed with him and not touching him as he cries and breathes heavily. "What's going on Calum, what's wrong?" He asks worriedly.

"I don't- I- I wanna be left alone." The two nod, telling Calum they love him and to come talk to them whenever he feels like it, and leaving him in his room. Calum stays there, he doesn't want to talk to them.

The two go downstairs together and sit in silence for a few minutes, beginning to realize how serious calums feelings may be. Does he really dislike Luke that much? He doesn't even know the boy, how could he? Lukes amazing and they know they'll get along if they just get to know each other. They decide to still make Calum spend time with the blonde as soon as possible. If he still doesn't like the whole situation after that, well, they'll reconsider and talk over it again.