Regret

An idiot, a stupid fucking idiot. That's what I am. 

I knew the minute I let them go I would lose them. However, I never knew they'd end up with her.

They no longer gave me heartwarming smiles or meaningful touches. It all went to her. They gave me empty smiles.

They never spared a glance at me, their eyes reflected nothing to me. But with her, they shined brightly with nothing but warmth and love.

They used to look at me that way.

They adored her and she adored them in return. Her eyes too pooled with love for them. She too returned their affections to them.

If I had done that too would they have still been here with me?

I pushed them away but she pulled them closer.

I left them empty-handed but she never let their hand go.

I broke their heart and she mended it back together again.

I left them alone while she never left their side.

It was clear to me that I no longer meant anything to them. As much as I tried to convince myself I didn't care, I knew it wasn't the case.

I still love them.

It's too late to go back.

They're gone, I can't change anything nor can I fix it.

My words mean nothing.

With heavy feet and tired eyes, I slink away from the heartwarming scene.

Petra and [Name].

Just another regret I'll add to the list.