I Miss you so bad I hate you(Season 2 of chase hudson series)(ON HOLD)

Chapter 1~ Love is gone

I'm sorry, don't leave me, I want you here with me

I know that your love is gone

I can't breathe, I'm so weak, I know this isn't easy

Don't tell me that your love is gone....

Love. 

I hate it. 

It ruins everything. 

You could be the happiest human being in the whole wide world but...once love comes around in your life it fucks you up. 

I've loved two girls in my entire life. 

The first was a mistake..

The second is my everything...

or should I say was.

Her name was taylor and she was the most beautiful girl I had laid my eyes on. 

She had blondish hair with the most gorgeous hazel eyes. 

A smile that lit up the entire sky.

Her personality was always so kind and sweet but if you messed with her you would get what's coming to you.

I loved her. I still love her. 

She made me feel amazing things. 

Chase's P.O.V

I lay in my bed in complete darkness letting my thoughts get to me. 

It's been only a week since all of this went down and I'm not used to it. 

I won't forget the last words she told me. 

~1 week ago~

After I had left the house I went to addison's and told me what happened. She was furious but she told me to go back to taylor to at least try and fix things which I was willing too. 

I finally reach the door and twist and to my surprise it was unlocked, I thought maybe  she had forgiven me and waited for me to come home. 

I open the door and look to the right and see suitcases along with baby bags next to it. 

"Taylor"! I yell and I get no answer hm. I walk in the kitchen. No Taylor. I walk in the living room. No Taylor. 

"taylor"! I yell again and she comes downstairs slowly with Hannah and Anthony each in their car seats. 

She walked past me without saying anything. No expression. 

"taylor..where are you going"? I ask a lump in my throat appearing. 

"anywhere but here I'm leaving for good". She says with a straight face and my eyes dwell up with tears. 

"b-but why we can work this out I'm sure". I say and she shakes her head. 

"there is nothing you can say or do to make me stay here..chase you've put me through hell and back I can't do it anymore". she says raising her voice tears forming in her eyes as well. 

"don't go...stay here please" is all I say before she opens up to say something again but then she hesitates. 

"you broke your promises chase". 

"what promises taylor I never told you any promises I just did it". i raise my voice getting slightly angry.

"YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME CHASE..THAT WAS THE FUCKING PROMISE. You always said forever and always but it's not true..you had to do all of this shit to see if you still loved me at the end of it. Obviously that isn't love if you have to test it like some sort of science experiment. Chase I've been through so much and You just pulled me deeper into your shit if it wasn't for you all of our friend wouldn't be dead nor my parents and I'd be living a normal life. WITHOUT you". 

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"if it wasn't for you all of our friends would be dead, nor my parents and I'd be living a normal life WITHOUT you"-

That same sentence kept replaying in my head. I'm so stupid. 

I lay there and replay all the memories in my head. 

~The day taylor gave birth~

It's been 2 hours since the dance started and addison and the other members of our friend group came. We were all dancing when i heard a scream. Taylor. I turn around looking for her to see her walking leaning to the side while holding her stomach screaming. "babe whats wrong". i asked frantically running over to taylor. "i-i think im going into labor-".

Oh shit.

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Christmas was even more memorable. 

 ~Christmas~

I then  handed her a  small box. She opened it. She said It was so beautiful. It said forever it will be us. "babe we've been together for 3 months and these three months have been the best...this is a promise ring...to promise that no matter what we go through we will always be there for each other...I love you.."  I said  my eyes watering. "i don't..know what to say..oh my god..thank you..I love you too". She said tearing coming down but they were tears of joy. 

I remember that day. It was honestly the best. Now that I think about that day I remember there was a lot. She found out about my first love..she didn't tell me till later and I got pissed for her brother and her snooping in my room. I told her off and that was the first time she left me..but she came back. 

I wonder if she'll come back.. 

Or if she's completely fallen out of love with me.. 

A/N 

well here's chapter 1 hope that gets you guys ready for the entire story now. If you thought it couldn't crazy you thought wrong tehe. More murder and mystery mixed with romance and suspense is coming your way so thank you for supporting :) 

Love yall <3

P.s I typed this chapter while listening to the eulogy of you me on repeat the whole time :)