February 15, 2021.
1:37 AM.
N: i literally can't do this.
W: what do you mean? what happened? everything ok?
N: no nothings fucking okay. nothing's ever been fucking ok
W: what happened?
N: it just doesn't fucking get better, ever.
W: it doesn't, does it?
N: no, it doesn't.
W: it's true. you just have to occupy your brain until you know it's safe.
N: yea? well it doesn't look like it ever will be and it's getting really fucking boring pretending like it will. "occupy" i can't do that anymore. i'm fucking weak bro. weak.
W: run from them. it works for a while, a long while.
N: until you're out of breath.
W: exactly.
N: till you just can't breath anymore.
W: nothing really will ever be ok. that's why you forget. move on from it. and if u can't do that, what else is there to do?
N: Lmao, run away.
W: alone with your thoughts. funny how that works.
N: exactly. they just follow you. there is no getting rid of them.
W: funny how the minute you think everything got better, it storms on you. makes you want to scream.
N: really fucking loud.
W: until you just.. collapse. and you can't move, you can't run.
N: you can't ignore them anymore. when they're looking you straight in the face.
W: it feels like they're burning alive. burning inside you. it hurts. feels like suffocation N: and you think you've learned how to ignore that burning feeling. but as you ignore it,it gets worse.
W: you think it's okay and then you hit reply on that song. you think you're brave enough. and then that's when you realize.. it was all just forgotten, waiting to be discovered again, to strike.
N: harder than ever.
W: you swallow back all the emotions.
N: and that smile spreads across your face once again.
W: until it makes you want to throw up. it's all fake.
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Storie brevitw to anyone who is going through a hard time, or have been fro a while, and feel like they have no one left to turn to. (you can add my discord @W h i s k e y. #5750 or message me here on wattpad if you need to talk, im here for you.) love, N.
