Unloved (Slowupdate)

Chapter 9

Rebekah

I remember the day when I turned eighteen. There was a huge party at home . I met people of huge intellect and power in society . Most of the people I have known them my entire life some where strangers too . Among the all I also knew The Castillo's. Which also ment I also very well knew  Asher Dominic Castillo. I remember the moment when my father officially announced to everyone at party that I was betrothed to Asher.

My parents were very fond Asher since we were little kids . It was then they had decided that he would be their son-in-law. So I already knew that he was my husband. And I also grew up to the thought of being good wife to my husband at very young age. So I used to always be close to Ash . We went same school , everyone knew I was his, well he made it sure of that . Ash always wanted to gain my attention in everything he did.

He was my first in everything my kiss was him, I had my first period when I was with him, he was there holding me tight comforting me with his words. I loved him soo much .

I was fifteen and Ash was eighteen, It was decided that Asher was old enough to study abroad and understand business. Which also ment he was leaving me for long term. That night was very emotional for me , I was too weak to handle all my emotions,  I needed Ash to hold me but I knew it was only for this night I had with him for myself. So gave my whole self to him , that was night when I gave him my virginity and that was the last time I saw those eyes . Until at the party when my father announced I was supposed to be his wife.

Like I said earlier Ash would do anything grab my attention , now his new tactic was to dance with some whores . Acting as if I don't exist to him. I dint wanted to give him that it effects me , I just took my drink and walked away. I walked towards the garden. But suddenly I heard Ash calling me. I didn't wanted to be near him so a ran faster as I can, but I failed I felt his strong hands from back caught me.

"Rebekah stop ... where do you think you're going." The moment he spoke those words I knew I was too weak too handel myself . I was tearing up.

"Don't Asher___ don't touch me ,let go of me." I knew he hated when I called him Asher.  But I love pushing his buttons and he deserved it for the stunt he pulled there.

"Stop calling me that, you very well know that I hate when you call like that . " he said gritting his teeth .

"Well then get used to it , because i'm going to call u Asher itself. Well to think of it isn't that your name Asher." I know I have pushed this hard on him. But I had too I'm soo done with this behavior.  Him making me look like  some kind of joke and embarrassment in all these parties and all these people staring at me like I have no control over this marriage soo I had to get it out.

"Baby what's wrong with you, you know that all back there doesn't mean anything. You know I do that to get your attention." Saying that he tried to touch my hands to clam me down. I can't believe he knows me soo well that his touch was just enough to just melt in his strong arms. Just this one act broke me . I couldn't control my tears so I just let them flow . I know seeing me with tears he knew something must be eating me up from inside. And I wanted him to see it in my eyes .soo caught him by collar and pulled him to me, I want him closer to me and I want him to look into my eyes when I talk to him and listen to me carefully.

"Exactly my point its always been about you. You're possessiveness, you're attention, your sexual desire. It's always been all about you this whole marriage it's been about you not me . Where am I in this marriage ? what about my needs , my possessiveness , my attention, my sexual desires. You know what I feel whenever you want you have used my body to please you and leave when you're done like I'm some kind of you're personal sex toy to play. But what about when I want you, when I need you soo desperately you were never present. Everytime I seek you're support and you're warmth you're always missing. You're always missing everytime I need you emotionally or physically. This is not the marriage I have signed up for this whole marriage is a sham."

"Don't__don't call our marriage as sham . You out of all people should know this is not a sham . You know we have come a long way to be with eachother. And you don't get to decide what this marriage is..."

"Then who gets to decide is it again you. Just like you decided to kidnap  and marry me Or like you decide when we should have sex. Even if I don't want to. When do I get a say in this marriage Ash. I'm tired of you treating me like someone who is only here to fulfill your desires and attend to your pleasures. Why don't you realize that I'm your wife. And I'm supposed to be treated well." My words must have effected him . He stood there in shock. I can't believe I said all . I hope Ash understands . Because I love him soo much I can't let him go like this. With all that we have been through I can't afford to lose him like that. I really want him back like he used too the loving and caring. Now that my feelings are out I just wanna go home and sleep like a baby.

"I'm going home , I'm sleepy. You finish with the party . I'm done for today."

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