tw// rape, abuse, death
The doors opened and I saw him from a distance.
He was my ally, my brother and my love.
I still remember the days when he didn't mind getting wet under the rain as long as I am dry.
I still remember the countless cups of coffees we had in the coffee shop while studying.
I still remember the time when he gave most of his share when he finds out that I skipped meals.
When you joined me in my nonsensical videos, when you switched places with me everytime we walk on the sidewalk and when you defended me from other guys who had impure intentions, it was more than enough than what I could ask for.
As I walk closer to you, memories from the past came rushing in.
How you laugh everytime I crack a joke and how you smile when I do silly things.
I can never forget the moment you rushed over because you found out that I was in trouble.
All I see is darkness, mouth gagged and tied up.
Random hands trying to touch me.
Crying my eyes out and couldn't make a sound.
Then came a whisper from someone. "I can't wait to be in you" and bit my ear.
My body froze. I couldn't move nor I could think straight.
All I ever thought of that moment was to escape.
I didn't know how to escape from that foreign place with guys I didn't know.
My hair was yanked up and I was thrown against the dirty, cold floor.
I felt someone squatted over and held my chin.
"Now, boys. Let the program begin."
After he said those words, claps and cheers filled the air.
I tried wriggling to escape their grasps but to no avail, I still couldn't escape and I earned a slap.
Just as they were about to undress me, I heard a loud bang.
I wanted to scream, but I couldn't.
Suddenly, more people entered the room.
I thought I couldn't be more scared.
But when I heard more voices and and footsteps entering the room, my fear heightened.
What ifs filled my mind and all I could do was cry.
My hands and feet were untied, my blindfold was removed and so did the cloth that was gagging me.
I felt a warm embrace telling me that I'm fine. That I am safe.
It was you.
"I will protect you no matter what and I will get you out of this place mkay?"
You locked me in your arms and kissed my head while whispering words of comfort that I couldn't understand.
I had no idea of what was going on but you slid something in my body that felt heavy and for what it was, I didn't know because I was too scared to look at somewhere else except your face.
You tried to get me up. You tried to bring me outside. To safety.
My arm was grazed by a bullet but you shielded me from those bullets.
By the time we reached outside, you fell on the asphalt road.
You were coughing blood but you still managed to put a smile on your face.
I rushed to you but all you did was cup my cheek and assured me that you are fine and none of these are my fault.
I started screaming when the other officers tried to pull me away from you.
I watched you board the ambulance while I was taken to police custody.
By the time I was released, I immediately rushed to find you.
And when the doors opened, I saw you there.
Lying in a cold bed. Covered in white sheets. Lifeless.
I approached you slowly. Unable to process the situation.
I held your cold hand and felt it against my hands.
"You did protect me." I whispered
Tears uncontrollably fell from my eyes.
"But why did you have to leave me?"
Sobs were escaping from my mouth.
"You will always be my hero. Always and forever."
And with that, I bid my farewell by kissing his forehead for the last time.
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