Have you guys ever had that moment of realisation.
"fuck,I'm such a bitch "
Ever said those words?
If yes,
How many times have u said it?
I've said so many times.
I like reminding myself everyday, Especially when i had just woken up or before I go to bed.
Honestly sometimes the only thing that puts me to sleep is
calling myself names.
Every night it's on replay
U bitch
Whore
Idiot
Slut
Pussy
Liar
...
There's more
Hundreds more but no one has time for that.
Some people tell me that maybe I'm not depressed or anxious
It could just be puberty .
They say I'm way too young to know what pain is.
I mean I know I'm only 15
but that doesn't I can't feel any pain.
No matter how old you are
You can feel pain,
Whether it's just a bit of pain or more
It's still pain.
Oh yeah
Something else that I hate is when you talk about what you have been trough and someone says
"I've been trough that too and I'm not hurt about it ,you're just being a pussy."
It's the one of the rudest things a person can do
I sometimes wish that a person would do it back to them,
So maybe that way they can feel the pain they have just caused by saying it.
We all go trough similar things which effect us differently
I could have been called a whore and laughed it off
But there are others who got called whores and hurt themselves to stop the pain it makes them feel.
That's all for tonight
I'll come back tomorrow
Feel free to dm on insta
♡I'll be your free therapist♡
YOU ARE READING
just some stuff I'm feeling
RandomThis isn't a story ,I just need to let out my feelings. It's silly but whatever ,life is life. Have fun reading this I guess
