She's tired of people not wanting to listen, they keep pushing her aside like she isn't important, she just wants to scream but no one will listen, she sits in her room alone all the time, no one bothers to ask if she is alright, every time she's tried to poor her heart out they decide to change the subject to something irrelevant, all she wants is to just be heard like the way she hears them, she doesn't understand why no one wants to listen, she just wants a true friend to be there, she's never had one, she's always been the odd one out, she can't help but feel this way, she's tired of holding all her emotions inside, she feels like she wants to explode that it's making her chest feel heavy, she just wants someone that she can vent to about her true self but feels like there is no one to go to, she's tired of wearing this mask to be there for people, when no one wants to do the same, she's tired of listening to peoples problems that make her problems feel so little, she's been through so much in her life but no one gives her the time, all she wants to do is just be loved and feel appreciated, she wants to feel like she has someone who truly cares about her, she's been alone in her thoughts way to long now, she says "it gets tiring of holding all these emotions that I have inside of me, it's the worst when you don't have anyone to talk to about how you truly feel, people only want to listen when it's about them, they don't ever take the time to understand that their problems aren't the only problems in the world, that everyone goes through different things in life and if they would just listen they would realize that I understand that life is hard and I've been through a lot too but they seem to not care about what I have been through which is okay because at the end of the day I know that I've been a wonderful person by just being there for someone who isn't for me, I'll never change the person who I am, I'm always caring and looking out for people who I care about and I won't ever be sorry for being that person, but there comes a time where you start to feel exhausted by giving people so much of you when you realize that they will never do the same, and I got to that point I'm not open to anyone anymore about how I truly feel, there's times that I wish I could be so that this heavy feeling in my chest goes away but every time I've tired to almost open myself up again people just show me a reason why I just stay silent and keep to myself and the reason is because no one wants to listen, i wonder if anyone wonders why I'm not open with anyone anymore or maybe people don't think about how I feel at all, all I know is that one day I will get there but all this keeping my feelings in just makes my chest feel heavy and heavier everyday it just makes me tired". She is tired of giving her heart to people who truly don't deserve to have it, but no one will truly understand what this feels like unless you go through it but I hope no one has to feel the way she does because it's all just pain of hiding her secrets in, because when you do you'll get the point where you feel like you need to explode but you can't.
