Untainted love

The Letter

Dear Derrick,

I thought I was dreaming. Not a dream a nightmare. I was seeing with my own eyes that my crush or more appropriately the love of my life was falling for my best friend. I first thought that they were just my insecurities making me see things but gradually I saw the way he talked to her, the dreaminess and the wonder in his eyes when he talked about her, the way his eyes would light up when he saw her, like she was the only girl in world.

I longed to be noticed by him and not just a friend but more. I wanted to be the person he looked at that way. I many times made up my mind to break them apart but the moment I saw them so in love I could literally hear my heart breaking but I could do nothing because even if I could not get my happy ending I would not take it away from them, I did not have it in me. But I was tired of watching them falling more in love(if that was even possible) from the sidelines. I had decided that I would leave the city and go far away from the memories. I would sure miss everyone but at least I would not have to be the bridesmaid at their wedding. I thought that I would just disappear from their lives. The thought pained me that he would just forget me like that but I had to do what had to be done so all our lives would be good. But what I was not prepared for was him proposing her in front my eyes. I wanted to do nothing more than yell and tell him how much I loved him but I couldn't. I did not want to ruin their perfect moment the moment I would never experience.

I knew that maybe someday I would marry someone and learn to love him because that was inevitable but I knew, how I did not know but I knew that I would never be able to love anyone like I loved him. A piece of my heart would always belong to him maybe not even a piece but my entire heart belonged to him. I gave him the power to crush me the way that was never possible and that ruined me.

Who would have thought that the badass of the whole university who did not shed a single tear when she was in the brink of death would be crying her heart out for someone. Who knew that even the toughest girl was not immune to the charms of the school heartbreaker. This letter is written by me but I am sure this will never reach him. I also want to say sorry that I ran at a short notice and did not attend your wedding. I knew that I would not be able to control myself. So in a way I it was better that way. I hope that one day that I get the courage to give it to you but I doubt it. So I just wanted to tell you I love you just so you have not deduced this yet. I love you and will love you till the end of life.
Yours lovingly,
Jane
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This letter was being read by a crying girl who had found this in the attic of her parent's room. She wanted to know who this Mary was. So she raced down to the garden where mom and dad were having tea.

She reached them and held the letter in front of them and asked them
"Who is this mom". The adult faced the teenager and craned her neck that what had gotten her daughter's attention. As soon she saw it she reached for her husband. He turned and saw the letter and her eyes filled with unshed tears, he replied "She was your mom's best friend darling". As soon the teenager heard this a small smile graced her lips and said

"So she finally have the letter to you dad?". She thought that maybe both her parents would smile but she got confused when she saw them getting more upset and then mom said "No darling this letter was given to us by the lawyer, she had written in her will that in case she passes away this letter is to be given to us." After hearing this the child's shoulder sagged and started crying softly and just asked two questions "How? When?" They replied "Just after our wedding we got the news that she died in an car accident while saving a small child".

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