Hiraeth (Dabi x Reader Fanfic)

Ambedo

Ambedo: A kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details—raindrops skittering down a window, tall trees leaning in the wind, clouds of cream swirling in your coffee—briefly soaking in the experience of being alive, an act that is done purely for ones own sake.

Dabi's POV Pt. 2: 

Y/N? They're crying.

Should I just leave them alone? Should I even go ask if they are okay? I might just end up making it worse honestly I'd probably end up scaring Y/N instead of helping them. 

Fuck. 

Fuck. 

Damn it what the hell am I supposed to do go ask "Hey are you okay?" That would be stupid to ask since Y/N's crying Y/N's obviously not okay I swear people who ask a person when they're crying if they're okay are the stupidest. Of course, they're not okay they're crying for fucks sake. Ugh shit. I can't just leave Y/N like this even if we barely know each other how am I supposed to just walk away like I saw nothing I already have trouble sleeping...fuck me 

"Hey there-" 

Y/N screamed jumping up a little startled by my voice "AGH DA FUCK"

Shit I scared them way to go Dabi

I put my hands up trying to show Y/N I had no intention of harming them "Sorry, sorry I didn't mean to scare you there darling."

"Darling?" Y/N asked looking at me up and down confused. 

"Ah sorry about that I don't mean to come off as a jerk or anything like that" I continued "It's just I was walking and I saw you and realized it was you from the elevator. And heard crying and music and well yeah...and well your standing close to the bridge's railing...are you okay?" I explained trying my best not to sound awkward which didn't help.

Seriously how the hell are you supposed to comfort people? Emotions are uncomfortable... what the hell am I supposed to say? 'There there it's okay' that's stupid.

"Uh hey, there you okay? I know I'm just a stranger to you so you might feel uncomfortable but if it helps my name is Dabi."Y/N seems uncomfortable I mean Y/N is alone so obviously, they would be cautious of me for fucks sake it's late and they're alone I should've just left them alone...

"It's Y/N," Y/N spoke

"I know we go to the same college you're pretty famous in the music department pretty good from what I hear. But seriously are you gonna be okay?" I asked kind of worried 

Why am I even worried for someone else? I shouldn't be worrying about someone else when I have my own problems agh...

Do I try and go comfort Y/N I don't want to make them uncomfortable this is too fucking complicated? No awkward. I should've just left. 

Y/N looks at me thinking as if they're trying to solve some hard math problem. 

"Uh you seem kinda out of it and you're drunk are you oka-" Y/N cuts me off before I get to finish my sentence 

"You want me to be honest? Well, usually when people ask how I'm doing the real answer is I'm doing shitty. But I can't say I'm doing shitty because I don't even have a good reason to be doing shitty. So if I say I'm doing shitty then they say 'why?' 'what's wrong?'. And I have to be like I don't know all of it? So instead when people ask how I'm doing I usually say 'I am doing sooo great'. So yes?"

Well damn straight to the point I thought Y/N would've just told me to fuck off 

We stare at each other in silence awkward silence...