Maybe I Can Love Again? (Love Alarm Bxb)

Chapter Twelve

Elijah's Pov
Time was such a hard thing to understand, you wanted to try and make work of what it really was. Sometimes it was really painfully slow, sometimes it went fast beyond compare and before you even know it, your life flashed before your eyes and you start to ponder an I living my life the right way? Or did I make the right decisions a year ago.. That was the lingering thought everyday in my mind.

Did I make the right decision for myself one year ago when I left Hwang Sun-Oh and all of South Korea in the car back corner of my mind. Some days when I was happy without a care in the world working at my new job, I was heading in the direction of being a CEO at a ripe young age.

Sometimes it was so easy I could be hanging out with my new co workers of this company for a different app, one that didn't cause you to go so crazy. But then when I got home to my condo that's when the darkness would enter and it didn't wanna leave. it gave me some pretty unhealthy habits which I needed to work on.

I felt all the heaviness of missing the one happiness I had and get I knew the happiness was what was bringing me down.

"Elijah get some rest you've been working overtime non stop and I mean it sleep these next few days." A sleepy grin made its way across my lips slipping out of the slick black car, my top half of my suit jacket swing over to rest over my shoulders, nodding my head at Ryan a few times. Maybe I should have taken him up on that offer to join him and a few others for drinks.

Being able to legally drink was just different cause I could actually afford to pay for it when ever I needed to drown the little bits of sadness that would swoop up out of nowhere.

"I'll try my best you guys have tonight." I waved goodbye to him my black shoes making contact with the lobby floor as I entered. I wasn't even half way in when the landlord was walking towards me. He only did that when it was someone directly here to see me whether it was for business or just personal visits.

"Elijah, there's a young man here to see you and he requested to wait here till you get back." I arched my eyebrow in confusion. I wasn't expecting any visitors but I looked towards where the couches were and I thought I was dreaming right then and there. I had hoped I was drifting into an unconscious dream.

I held my breath but I thanked the landlord walking over towards him seeing he was focused on his phone till he glanced up at me, it was like a flashback memory of those big round eyes, God I loved those eyes, but the pain increased in my heart.

"Sun-Oh.. What are you doing... Here? All the way out here." I whispered my voice almost above the whisper I spoke. He was a couple inches taller, yet I was still taller he just didn't look the same. He stood up off the couch a heavy sigh leaving his parted lips.

"I know it took me a while.. and I'm late I was suppose to be here with Hye-Young a week after you left but my father forbid it, but I had to see you at least in person." He all but whispering moving closer to me I saw his own pain his eyes before his hand reached up to stroke at my cheeks a few times a small smile growing across his face.

"You look so different... Your hair grew." He cracked out. I should have pulled away he wasn't mine but his touch was something so needed to get out of the dark place so badly. I couldn't just jerk away.

My arms instantly just dropped everything in my hands my suitcase and suit jacket and my arms directly shot around his waist hugging him pulling him towards me his calming scent hitting me right there. His hands shot to grip the back of my head and hair my head resting on his neck.

I squeezed him like it was the last time I ever was going to, and maybe it was. But I just needed it right here. "I'm so sorry Elijah... I'm sorry for everything... I'm sorry for making you ever doubt anything... I'm sorry for never speaking up telling anyone about you I was so selfish and.. I should have spoken up." I shook my head a few times.

"You didn't have to speak up or do anything Sun-Oh... I just never could speak up because I was insecure and just afraid, afraid of something like what happened, happened and it did but there's nothing we can change about that okay." I muttered his arms stayed put in place and he knew that playing with my curls always relaxed me and made me feel at ease.

Just like I knew rubbing along the pattern of his spine but we both pulled away from the hug.

"Does anyone know you are here? You are a long way from home." I told him hearing him let a small exhale out but he shook his head.

"No.. No one does, I came by myself." I stared at him a little finding that odd.

"What about your on media girlfriend?" I questioned seeing him all but flinch.

"She has a name Elijah... But no she thinks I'm on a trip to the States which isn't half a lie but it is." I all but facepalmed gently picking up my stuff nodding towards my head for him to follow me up to my condo. This was just brewing for something but at the same time I didn't even care for what it might be.