"Tick tock, tick tock."
The clock goes, over and over again. As you stare at anything you could stare at.
"Tick tock, tick tock."
This time you start to stare more intensely as you start to drift off into your own mind. Wondering what even are you thinking about... your mind is blank, for once. You've never experienced this. Your mind was always rushing with new ideas and thoughts and everything else in between. It was busy and colorful, now it's dull and lifeless. Almost like still water. You look for things to think about, but nothing really sticks with you. Nothing is interesting.
"Maybe I'm just bored."
You aren't bored. You can't be. You keep losing your focus on anything you do. No matter how fun whatever it was you were doing, you kept going back to spacing out into that void, feeling emotionless.
"Maybe I'm sad...but I can't feel anything."
And so you sat there in a slumped position. Spending what felt like an eternity in that still mind. Until you drift off to sleep.
You wake up a couple of minutes after...not being able to keep yourself asleep. All of a sudden your brain was rushing again. You wish it hadn't...all the memories came back again. And that's when you realized you were sad. You were just avoiding facing those memories.
"Make it stop... make it stop."
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