Worthy of Sin

Eleven

*excuse any errors*

Sincere 'Sin' Jones || September 1998

She grabbed my face and kissed my lips a number of times before she pulled away and stared at me. "What you lookin' at?" I reached up to push her hair out of her face. "I don't know. Still tryna figure it out."

I smacked my lips and she started laughing. Typical Zola. Always tryna crack on a nigga and talk shit. "I'm just playin'," She reached to touch my face but I smacked her hand away. "Bae, you ain't even gotta act like that," She straddled me all the way and leaned down to kiss me but I put my hand in her face to stop her.

"Nah, leave me alone. Get off me," I attempted to push her off but I could tell by the look on her face that she had already caught my bluff. She know I didn't want her goin' no where.

"Alright, fine."

She started to get off but I stopped her. "That's what I thought,"

"Yeah, whatever," I glanced over at the clock we had in our hotel room and I noticed it was going on 5 in the morning. "Yo, when you gon' let me get some sleep? I know you tired,"

"No I'm not,"

"I can see it in ya' eyes," I stared at her as she chuckled and reached up to rub her red eyes.

I was growing accustomed to her habits and ways, and I knew exactly when she was sleepy. Her red, low eyes always was a dead giveaway. However, Zo bein' sleepy went one of two ways: She either copped an attitude or she would act goofy.

"Come on, ma, lay down," I got in my regular position so she would lay on me and she did and got comfortable. I gently massaged her back and kissed her forehead while she rubbed my face.

"I love you."

"I love you," She puckered her lips and I gladly gave her a kiss. "How much you love me?"

"I love you a lot. I couldn't see myself without you," Her words were simple, but they meant a lot. But, I couldn't help but to feel guilty because of my ongoing liaison with Karmen. I don't know what it is that kept me entangled wit' her ass, but I had a feeling I would find out the hard way.

She leaned in again for another kiss, in which it was given before she snuggled closer to me and fell asleep.

I didn't deserve Zo and I knew it, but I loved her too much to ever have her out of my life, so I knew I would have to put an end to me and Karmen.

The next morning when I had woken up, the rest of the bed was cold, which meant Zo was already up and that was confirmed once I heard the radio playing and the faucet running in the bathroom.

With a heavy groan, I pulled myself out of the bed and trudged to the bathroom door, knocking twice before inviting myself in. She stood at the sink washing her face and I stood behind her and greeted her.

"Wassup, baby?"

"Hey, you slept alright?" She asks and I nodded. "I always sleep good when I'm with you," She smiled and reached up to touch my face with her damp hand before turning the faucet off and she proceeded to put all that extra shit on her face.

Usually, I would talk shit but she always countered it with, "How you think I keep my skin looking good? It's not a miracle, now move on,"

After a few moments, I pulled away and went to go handle my business on the toilet. "Sincere, are you really about to take a shit while I'm in here?"

"What I'm supposed to do? Hold it?" I asked and she waved me off. "You can handle smelling me for five minutes,"

"That's five minutes too long, stinky," She turned the bathroom fan on and proceeded to finish her skin care before gathering her things and making her way out of the bathroom to leave me in peace.