Way Too Little

Chapter 3 (before)

From then on things just got worse. It wasn't just being touched, it was way worse. I wish I could tell you all the details but, it's just way too traumatic to tell. I don't even know how she got away with it. Didn't she feel guilty? I ask myself this question all the time. Yet, it's never gotten answered

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Playdates. Playdates happened almost every week. Now it was not only affecting me, but also my family. Sometimes I didn't come to dinner, I stayed late. While my baby sister (Giovanna) was being taken care of by my mother, I was at Catherine's house being abused.

Catherine not only abused me sexually, but also verbally. If I didn't want to do what she wanted me to do, she would threaten me. She would say;

" fine, I won't be your friend anymore and you could be alone"

I didn't like the sound of that, so I continued doing what she told me to do. Every play date was the same routine.

We would first go to CVS and she would make me steal candy for her. Then, we would go to her house. Abusement.

That's all. It was never fun for me. I just wanted to have a friend. Catherine's mom was fat and lazy. She never did anything and never checked on us. That was a mistake on her part. I hate mothers who are clueless to this day because of my experience with Catherine's mom. I mean it's not like she had so much to do. Catherine's older brother was old enough to never be around the house and Catherine's family divorced a long time ago. What was Catherine's mom doing? I don't know. That's what gets me annoyed. Catherine's mom was so clueless that it got to point where I even noticed it and started feeling bad for catherine. I hate that I did feel bad. She was abusing me. But, I also don't like to hate. I know...I'm a confusing person.