Fallen too far

Part 1

Shehnaz's POV
It's the day. The day where I have to make a decision of attending the party hosted by my long time crush Arjun Shikhawat. Its been a month since I have landed in Canada, leaving my home town punjab. It was my dream since I was 15 years to study abroad but my father wasn't well enough to help me with it, but I didn't give up and waheguru answered my prayers by sending me the scholarship I worked so hard for, "The Golden opportunity" And here I am a month after, siting in my cafeteria, staring at the students in front of me. Life here is totally different. As much brave I felt when I left Punjab, the minute I stepped in my flight nervousness took over me. The fear of settling down in a totally new country by travelling across the world, it felt weird as if I left my whole world behind me and those fears came true when I attended the first class of the year.
The whole journey from Punjab to Canada was a terrifying, but I have always been very ambitious on what I want. And this is what I wanted so this is what I got myself. When I lived with my father and my sister I wasn't allowed to speak to guys, wear short or sleeveless clothes. But since I've come to canada, its different to have this freedom of doing what I want to do. And it surprisingly feels good, living in my small room just across from the university, cooking my own food and wearing what I want to. Just like a week back I went shopping to Walmart and brought myself new dresses, and new pairs of short, some of it for myself and some of it to try and get Arjun notice me. The first time I saw Arjun, it was a foreign feeling my heart felt. Off course I wasn't in love but I assume thats what crushes mean, so technically he was my first crush accept
for Salman khan. He was hot, he sucked the air out of the class, I haven't seen anyone grab so much attention, the girls were fighting to sit beside him and why wouldn't they? The most attractive part about him was his accent, it was mixed there was a hint of punjabiness in it but then the English took over him. Me? I just like to stare at him from the side, silently without being noticed off course. The last class of the day was finally done. And I am so sure Aish is going to call me asking me about the party. But I have made up my mind to attend it. This is what I came here for and I am going to enjoy my freedom or just stare at him with a different girl just like last time. That's when I spot a girl with golden hair strings looking pretty as always in her crop top and high waisted jeans. Aish is raised in India and came here 7 years back, her parents are absolute love and treat me like family but let me give you a warning she can be too dramatic at times, and she changes her boyfriends faster then i change my phone's walpaper, but all in all shes a great person. And I love her with all my heart.
Aish-Please tell me tu aaj aa rahi he? mere paas tere liye ek bahot sexy se dress he.
Sheh- Ummm haa mein aa rahi hu but rules pata he tujhe. You have fun with your friends and...
Aish- Yes aur aap hamesha jaise side pe khade rehke tadhengi. Waise chorh yaar Arjun ko! You deserve to be noticed him and he's an a*** to not do so.
Sheh-Rules are rules, aur ha dress he mere paas. Walmart se I had puchased, Abhi mujhe jaana he library to finish an assignment but I'll see you at the party directly okay?
Aish-Okay sweetie. *YEAH THE DRAMATIC PART* Aur abhi bhi soch le I have guys waiting for you.
Sheh-And I am not interested. *winking at her, gigles leaving for the library*
Shehnaz's POV
It's been almost 2 hours staring at him with a girl at the bar. I think the name he mentioned was Shanaya? or Shankya? It's hard to hear what they are saying since the music is so damn loud. He barely knows her he seems pretentious and unusal. And then he gave me a stare, wait what? My heart started pacing fast, maybe I should have worn the red dress instead but this black dress hugged my body perfectly and made me look really good. But I dont think he actually saw me, but I saw his gaze, he's charming and fascinating. Just when I was about to drop the cold glass from my palm, a guy from one of my classes jumped in to say
Hi. "You look so good today!" he complimented. But my attention was somewhere else. Maybe this was just Aish
trying to set me up again, and it was time for Arjun to leave the stage and go to his room with the girl, just like his usual days and it was my queue to leave the party and go home. But while leaving something in me lit up. And i ended up following him on the staircase, it's a huge one but they are too busy in each other to glance behind them. And I finally end up at the door of the room they are in, lost in each othe . Do I actually wanna be there with him? But I know myself, I've always wanted a steady and a loving relationship, "Shanaya" his voice sounds like honey, when she walks towards the door, and with the thought of getting caught I squeeze myself at the wall and hear the shutting of the door. Just with the thought, that I would never want to be just another girl.
I cross the hallway to make myself back to my apartment.
"He's never going to go for you." a voice comes out of the dark in front of me. I squint and when I look closer, I see there is a nother bedroom at the hall with the door wide open and though I couldn't quite make out the figure, I could see some one sitting in an armchair, muscular enough and offcourse a mail with a ciggerrete in this hand. I take a step forward, why is it talking to me like this? "Excuse me?"
Per-Arjun ko itni bholi bhali ladkiyan nahi pasand. You are too simple for him, he would never understand the beauty lying behind that simplicity.
Sheh-Ummm
Per-Bura laga?
Sheh-Offcourse, Not that I care.
Per-Well you should, what are you doing up the hallway anyway? Care to explain?
I take a step forward, and then more steps. I should have just run down the
stairs, but there is something about his aura that is making me want to know more.
Sheh-Ummm I j..just. *why am I stammering, it's giving him power over me*
Per-Let me guess, just another person jisko Arjun mein interest he. But welcome back to reality he isn't your types.
Sheh-Sabse pehli baat, What makes you think I am simple. Aur dusri baat, what makes you think I am not his types.
Per-Maine bola he isn't your types, Arjun is my friend since we were 2 years old , And I know him better then his mother and I know him better then you do and better then he knows himself.
Ohh he knows Arjun well, way too well and just I take the next step. I realise I know this guys too, He is Sidharth Shukla, son of Sidharth's father's business partner. He lived here, and he is my substitute teacher for one of my engineering courses. My hands are sweating and he is making my pulse jump up a notch.
Shehnaz's POV
Sidharth was several years older than the rest of us. I knew he was pursuing a Masters in the same university. He is a well known personality in the uni. because he is brilliant at his work and also is cold-hearted. His designs are so famous and people praise him a lot. He is tall, attractive, tough, powerful, strong and well-built. I am legit scared of him. But at this point it is something about his aura and the way he is sitting on the chair with his sleeves folded to his elbow and that cigarette is his hand is attractive and its a force pulling me towards him. That makes me realize I haven't answered his question.
Sheh-Ohh I umm, I wasn't loo..king
Sid-Offcourse you were, And when it comes to your simplicity. You are trying hard to fit in the crowd, wearing this dress.
Sheh-Nahi, I am not. (but whom was i kidding . I was a jeans kind of girl, someone who loved wearing pretty punjabi suits but I am trying to blend in, its a new country and my mother always taught me one thing. I have to adapt according to the situation, well this is a whole new turn my life has taken so yes maybe I am trying but there's nothing wrong in that and he needs to know that. He's no one to judge me anyways) Tumhe usse matlab?
Sid-Yes you are, yes mujhe matlab he because you are stalking my best friend plus room mate so I need to make sure what kind of a girl are you. (He doesn't know I am his student this is getting more and more interesting, too bad I won't be able to see his reaction because of the darkness)
Sheh-So I am sure, you can't see since there is no light in the room but I think you should know that I am your student for the Software class. (He got alerted instantly hearing this, he stretched his arm and yanked turning on the lamp next to him. I blinked several times adjusting to the new lighting, but the moment my eyes see him I froze. I've seen him in class so many times but this time it was different. He looked different, he is wearing a simple black shirt with blue ripped jeans, he has a subtle beard which makes him look more rugged and tough, the shirt hugs his biscepts folded up until his elbows. He is way more well built than Arjun, his long hair fall on his forehead and he swiftly swipes away his palm across his forehead moving them away.
Sid-I know you are Shehnaz Gill. (Ok this is shocking, he knows my name.
I never expected it, And it felt good maybe thats what being noticed felt. Goosebumps popped up along my skin hearing my name from his mouth, I hugged myself and rubbed my hands up and down my arms ) You have an "A" grade on all your papers, Tum ek bhi class miss nahi karti, tum Canada scholarship pe aayi ho, Tumhe first bench pe bethna pasand he, And when you are not busy listening to your profesor you are staring at Arjun just like any other girl in your class but the only difference is you never try hitting on him. Why? is the question.
Sheh-Huh? The answer to your question is "It's none of your business."
Sid-Well then, stay away from Arjun stop staring at him and then maybe we can you know. *a smirk took over his face, what is he trying to say. Ohh wait this smirk actually suits him, I swallow the bile down my throat and his smirk almost lifted in a smile, he knows what he's doing and he's enjoying it but to me this is annoying*
Sheh-Agar tum jo bolna chah rahe ho wo mein sahi samjh rahi hu, so let me tell you Sidharth Shukla I am not interested. Aur let me remind you, You are my teacher. *my nervousness is quiet visible in my voice, blaberring is what I am doing*
Sid-No I am not, mein tumhara substitute teacher hu. Only until Mr. Shetty is back from his family holiday.
Sheh-What part of not interested didn't you understand? Or was is the part where I just reminded you that you are my substitute teacher?
Sid-Fine, fine, Ms. Punjaban Just stay away from Arjun, okay?
Sheh-Aur tum kaun hote ho woh bolne wale? Mere papa? ya fir bade bhai?
Sid-His room mate and his best friend. Don't forget I am your substitute teacher aur tumhare grades for now mere haath mein, and I know this urge you have of
getting an "A" on each of your tests and assignments. Maybe next time it will be a "C" on your software test.
(My eyes go at his back to a small fame on the back of his arm chair, its a small one but its big enough to grab anyones attention it was sidharth with a beautiful woman, it looked like a proposal because the girl was busy staring at the ring in her hand while sidharth was busy staring at her, but it was a much younger version of Sidharth. No beard, much leaner, his hair were longer in the front when my gaze drops back to him he seems to have settled down placing his ankle on his knee with the cigarette in his hand which he hasnt smoked since I got here. )
Sheh- Punjaban bola he toh samajh gaye hoge, I am not scared of you, so don't threaten me. Yes I might be a simple girl and not like the girls you are used to but I am not scared of anyone, so just back off and let me do what I want to do.
Sid-I think...
Sheh-I don't care what you think or what you want.
Sid-Thik he if you don't care then what are you still doing here? In my room? In the middle of the party? with a stranger? OR wait with your substitute teacher? (A chill ran through me, at this mention. The hair at the back of my neck stood up, he was right. I should be running why Am I still standing here and arguing with him.)
Well I guessed, you didn't have an answer so I am going to give you one. Walk out of here Shehnaz, I dont know if anyone mentioned but yeh floor is off limits during our parties. Aur next time Arjun pe nazar rakhni ho toh be more smart about it and try not to get caught or even better dur raho, because at the end you will end up h..
Before he could complete, I turned around and dashed downstairs without turning my back even once. Who the hell does he think he is, trying to be so rude, so intimidating but yet so calm and subtle. I dont like him at all, not 1%. And who is he to ask me to stay off Arjun, I wasn't going to try with Arjun anyways but why does he care. He makes me furious, I grabbed my coat from the coat area, since It is pretty cold outside. Another thing that took time for me to get used to was the snow and the cold, well I am still not used to it. But what was I thinking wearing a dress in this cold. Aish is busy with a new guy so no way I am going to her to drop me back. Maybe I can walk but its too late so I grab my phone from my pocket to call a uber for myself, but there is no way I am staying inside here and give myself a chance to see him again. I ended up at this sidewalk
just beside the house, pacing from one end to the other thinking about what just happened, Why did i stay? There was something between us but what was it? I was drawned to him and he looked like he was towards me. He is known to be cold-hearted and manipulated, but there was a moment when he opened up to me, I saw something different maybe that was just his way of manipulating, my eyes dart back to his room window at the top and a shiver ran down my spine, he is still watching me, how do i know? I see a small spark of his cigarette too close to the window. I felt his eyes on me, I felt so important, so cared for but so lonely at the same time. But one thing which I had made myself clear I am going to mantain my distance from Sidharth shukla!