Friends

I don't know anymore

hi and well fuck man all my friends are mostly having fun without me. I know this is stupid to say but like I feel like my friends all hate me. I try to be the happiest person I can but honestly I feel as if im broken. I'm crying writing this knowing how bad I just want to kill myself its because I feel left out, scared, confused, and hurt. Seeing all my friends with everyone makes me upset knowing that they didn't invite me and thats normal people get left out a lot. It's not all just about my friends either, I have other stuggles in life and people just don't believe me they say "she's lying" or "she cuts for attention" which I don't. I used to get bullied by some of my old friends for being fat and "emo". I don't call myself emo and I am a bit fat but still who the hell cares. I'm kinda done with everything at the moment and I'm glad im going away. I am deleting all social media for awhile and just going away I don't like to see myself in this state what so ever..I feel like shit more and more everyday. well for now bye I love you all..cya soon.