I finished my chapstick without loosing it,
I pet my cat more than a hundred times,
I finally got an A from history,
I made my bed in the morning,
Brushed my teeth,
Even joked with my friends.Are those all
The fun things in life?
Is that all I want to achieve?I rewatched my favorite anime,
I remembered my first friend's name,
I forgot the times you threatened me,
I forgot and remembered.My smile became forced,
My sleeves became long and dirty,
My skin became a canvas,
But you still didn't notice,
You didn't notice how I felt.I became rude, shameless, a slut,
I became a whore, a piece of trash,
I became lazy,
Worthless,
Nothing.That's what you noticed,
You thought I was just rude,
Just lazy.I hid my wrists,
I hid my drawings, the white lines,
They were meant to stay hidden.But have you noticed,
My eyes became dull and empty,
My voice became deeper,
I became secretive,
I became a different child you used to have.I even wrote a suicide letter,
In January,
When I was only twelve,
Not even a teen, a child,
I was a child,
Who didn't think they'd make it past March.Dull eyes and hidden drawings,
Dull and hidden,
My drawings became deeper,
My eyes became gray,
Have you noticed?I finished my chapstick without loosing it,
I pet my cat more than a hundred times,
I finally got an A from history,
I made my bed in the morning,
Brushed my teeth,
Even joked with my friends.I rewatched my favorite anime,
I remembered my first friend's name,
I forgot the times you threatened me,
I forgot and remembered.I found my favorite bands,
I listened to all my favorite songs,
I learnt their lyrics and sung them,
I broke my window and blamed it on ghosts,
I got an F on my test,
I watched all Harry Potter movies again,
I cried at their deaths, at their wounds.Those are all
The fun things in my life,
And I checked every one of them,
The list is completely done,
Filled and stained with tears,
And blood.I finally found peace, I finally found peace,
The wind caressed my face as I flew,
I flew and swam in concrete,
In my own blood.
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