Love

Love. Love is a weird thing. There are really only two types of love. You have friend love and romantic love. Both are very powerful. When it comes to friend love, you love that person of course. But, you don't see yourself marrying them. You don't stay up all night thinking about them. You want to keep them forever, but only as a friend. And then there's romantic love. Oh how this is different, in so many ways. You know you love someone romantically when you can't seem to get them off your mind. When they are the thing that keeps you up at night, but in a good way. When whenever and wherever they touch you tingles. When just the thought of them can make you smile. When you want to marry them. When you want their children. When you think they are absolutely and utterly perfect. Yes you may think your friends are perfect, but you can still find flaws. When you love someone romantically, all those flaws simply turn into perfection. This may sometimes not be the best, but it still happens. With romantic love, you want all of that person. You don't care what anyone else thinks. You just simply want them. All of them. Every singular inch of them. And when the thing that scares you the most in life, is the thought of losing them. When just even the small possibility of losing them scares you to the point you would rather die. When it physically pains your heart. When they have the power to make your heart actually hurt.   But you will always lose them. Whether it be to death, another person, or anything else, you will. And it will hurt. It will hurt so bad that you would rather die than continue to feel this pain the you feel. But it will get better. I promise it will. Some people say time heals wounds. This is not always true. Sometimes the only thing that can heal them is another person. Yes you may have thought that person was your soulmate, and they may have been, but they also may not have been. They simply were just a chapter in your life. No matter how you lost them, don't let them be the last chapter in your life. Continue to live. Yes you will feel pain. You always will, but don't let that pain control you because its really only a fear. A fear of living without that person. Don't let your fears control you. Be bigger than them. Face them head on. It may be terrible at first, fighting that pain. But I promise you it does get better. I know firsthand that is does. Give yourself a week to grieve, then move on. No matter how impossible this feels, just simply move on, because nothing is impossible. All impossible is saying is I'm possible. Just because you lost the person you love doesn't mean your life should be over. Keep fighting because I guarantee, whether they show it or not, you are someone's reason for living. So many people love you. So, go take a shower, eat something, drink something. Clean your room. Catch up on your missing assignments. Just don't let love ruin you. 

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Don't come at me this was written at three in the morning, but it is all still true. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm right here for you. Text me. I don't care if it's three in the morning or what ever else. I want to help you all as much as I can. Have a good day, a good night, or whatever. Remember to take care of yourself and be yourself. I love you all. 

- L