Dance with me | a Sugawara Koushi x Reader fanfiction

01

Emptiness. Sadness. Inferiority. Fear. Paranoia. Anxiety.

So many emotions bottled up, yet he wasn't ready to release them. He kept them deep inside, in a place where even he himself could barely reach them. And that was good. He wanted to forget those feelings. Those who made him cry late at night, those who drained him, those who let him feel and experience what it's like to be a failure. But to his own disappointment, he couldn't let them go. Like a boomerang, they came back every day and haunted him until he was so full of negative emotions that he couldn't take it anymore. He wanted to end all of this. But at the same time, he was afraid to. So many memories, happy ones and the only ones that kept him alive, would be gone. The only persons that cared about him, gone. Feeling this guilty of leaving the ones behind that actually cared about him made him feel even worse than the demons that lived inside of his heart. 

All these feelings, all these troubles, and why? Because of his passions, the only sport he ever played and was so in love with. Volleyball. Sugawara Koushi, a third year student at the Karasuno Highschool, is the second setter of the Karasuno Volleyball Team. The second? But he's a third year, he was in the team first, why is he the second? Because of a certain first year who took his place. He is a genius. He was a genius from the start. Kageyama Tobio, the first and main setter of the Karasuno Volleyball team. The one who took his place. Now don't misunderstand things, Kageyama may have a hard time communicating with people, but he's a lovely dork who truly cares about his teamates. Suga even get's along with him pretty well! But the feeling of guilt that crashes over him because he can't do any better, the feeling of pure agony with a sight of jealousy that hits him everytime he looks at Kageyama can't be undone. Even tho Suga knows very well that it isn't the youngers fault at all, he just wants to be appreciated as much as the first year.

But now you may think "all this just because of a sport?"

If only.

If only.

As if it wouldn't be enough, his crush of 5 years now has a boyfriend and moved away, without even saying goodbye. (Y/n), a girl shining brighter than the sun, a girl as lovely as flowers and as calm as a soft summer breeze. (Y/n), a girl Koushi loved with all his heart, a girl his heart burned brigther than flames for, a girl he was willing to spend eternity together with.

 A girl he would live for.

 A girl he would die for.

And now she's gone and took all of his love with her. 

 To sum it up, Sugawara Koushi's life feels like an emotional mess. You might wonder how all of this started, so let me take you back to a time where everything was fine, where his only worries were if the sky was sunny so he could go outside and play. Let me take you back to the beginning of Suga's life.

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Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell this pretty much sums up chapter one!! Honestly I have no idea what to write now, I'll guess I'll just go with the flow XD

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Take care friend <3

 Yumi